Thanks all around!

Thank you to Jennifer Davis for guiding Kristen and i to the awesome layout website for our blogs...i dont remember if Kristen changed her own, BUT!!! Thanks also to the Amazing Kristen for selecting and setting up for me an awesome background....

and Thank you to the wonderful Pelt familia! Game nights are O SO AMAZING especially with you!

prayer request

well, just wondering if yall could pray with me through this.

i will some how need to make about $1700 or as close to that as i can by the time i go back to school.
plus i need to make enough to cover book costs. i may only need to purchase two books because i should be able to borrow the others from other students.

that is the challenge that i am faced with now, please pray with me that i will rely on God for His provision. i know it will come. but its the patience in waiting for that that tends to get me most of the time.

love you all! Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year!

busy-ness!

i pulled through the familiar streets of Stafford Va on thursday night around 9:15pm.
From then, its been total craziness but still awesome at the same time. Ten minutes after arriving home i went over to the Marks residence to say hello to my BFF's Kristen and Michele, and their amazing family too!
Friday morning was my first day of work at Blockbuster. then immediately following work i stopped by home really quickly to change and get over to the Davis's house to babysit their amazing children! i absolutely love them! its always great fun and it brings me back to times when i would play war or something like that with my brother with forts and plastic weapons. and you cant forget the awesome Wii playing! the person who decided to mix DDR with Mario is amazing! i was always turned off of DDR because of the kreepy looking anime people in it.
Saturday morning, Second day of work. i still think im getting used to the computer system, but i think ive improved...my managers havnt had to void nearly as much as they had to the first day...
Saturday afternoon, i got of work early so i surprised another family dear to my heart, The Shaw-Scott family! great fun, i missed Momma-S, my lil sis Brit and big bro Phil so much! still cant believe i havent met Elizabeth yet! this must happen soon!
Saturday night i got a call from Jason Pelt, i had been trying to get ahold of the Pelt household all day because Jennifer Davis told me the Garmans were there for the weekend. I was excited when invited to come over for dinner. So awesome to get to dine with BOTH the Pelts AND the Garmans! not to mention, 5 kids that are on my list of most amazing kids ever! almost too much amazingness for one table! didnt end up leaving there til 1:30am due to some game playing (settlers of Catan, need i say more! twas awesome!)
Sunday morning, Church, reuniting with SBC! there are no words, none would suffice! i missed my SBC family so much! lunch at moes with my ppl! then off to quickly finish wrapping gifts and drop of my mom at my Uncles so i could spend a little bit of time with them before i had to go to work (sad stuff, my moms side of the family, they all came over to my uncles house, but alas i missed them by a mere 30minutes...had to go to work...) worked til like 11pm.
monday, work til 5 rushed home got ready and then was off to the Monday Night Bible Study Christmas Party, had great fun, but it was a Burke-family-less evening, meaning Jadey was sick so Josh and her were not there, and Jonathan was not there either, and also Jenna Q was absent due to sickness.....super sadness! i hope to see these amazing ppl soon though! i was exhausted that whole night though...but i still had alot of fun! we went to walmart afterward to continue the hanging out- i used that time to do some christmas shopping...
tuesday i had off, so i slept in, as much as i could, i have been gripped by congestion....my nasal passage kept wakeing me up. when i did finally get up i just sat around and watched movies and cleaned out our hallway closet... i plan on giving my house i DEEP clean before i leave, probably going to be purging alot of junk...especially from our basement, im not a pack rat and im trying to break my parents of this as well! it will be difficult, why you ask... Have you met my mom?
wednesday. woke up and ventured out to finish my christmas shopping, still had nothing for my dad or brother, off to walmart to get tools for pops, then bestbuy for zach then i was so close to Tropical Smoothie...it would have been a sin to pass it up! so i get my favorite smoothie ever the Sunrise Sunset, which coinscidently reminds me of the fiddler on the roof song...hehe love it!
then stopped by the church to say hello to Ms Carol. then back home to wrap gifts, watch movies, and get ready for the candlelight service!
after the service, we went to the Marks for the Christmas Party, i love that family to pieces!
Christmas morning... slept in, Zach had to work at the Firehouse all day today so we are having our Christmas tomorrow when he is with us... i woke up, relaxed and watched christmas movies all morning, then cleaned the Kitchen, then made breakfast with Mom. then cookies. i crashed at like 3 though...my dad gave me meds cause he was annoyed with my blowing my nose....
woke up at 5 and got ready. just got back from taking the cookies to my bro at the Firehouse... its awkward...going to the firehouse...especially with my mom their...there were more firemen there then i thought there would be. but twas nice to get a big hug from Zach and get to see his face and where he loves to work. so dont tell him...but im trying to turn my room into a space he can enjoy to be in since he is here more then i am...even though he is only here like every 2 weeks...but if you have any decorating idea's, let me know...im kinda lost with that sorta thing..


k i think im done.. thats super long...i was bored... my b.

Im HOME!!!

well, technically, at this moment, im at the Davis's and the kids are all in bed...
but i arrived back in Stafford last night at like 9 or 10 pm. Grack let me drive the last half of the trip.

ill blog more later...

today

Packing, Laundry, Cleaning...
these are all things i should be doing...
i leave tuesday morning...
i feel like i have alot of stuff to pack and nowhere to put it all...

defuniak springs and surrounding areas

i went on a little road trip yesterday with a friend to her gandma's house to make cookies. at 9:15 am we left Gracville and arrived back at around 10 or 11 pm.
this is what we passed on our journey there and around the area as we went to a lights display at a lake and some other places.

32 Churches
2 Meth Labs (not kidding about this...its true)
8 deer
1 possum
1 skunk
6 road kill
a playground (about 20 feet from one of the meth labs)
a bar (about 10 feet from one of the churches)
a panda bear made out of tin in the middle of the woods
12 towns (two of which had no names)
one of the two natural lakes that are a perfect circle
ed's (or tasty freeze)- best milkshakes and corn nuggets ever
my dream house. (two story victorian with a wrap around porch on both the first and second levels... BEAUTIFUL!!!)
an old train station(so cute, reminded me of anne of green gables)

that was my day yesterday. quite fun!

in a nut shell...

Today was my last day at work till January.
(im slightly bored right now so im just gonna share with you what the next couple weeks looks like for me...)

Saturday looks promising, i am going with my friend to her grandma's to bake cookies! im quite excited about this!
Sunday, i have to deep clean my room and organize everything. and start my laundry.
Monday i am packing and finishing cleaning.
Tuesday i leave with a friend from Graceville to go to Chatsworth Georgia. i will be at Global til thursday.
Thursday morning i head home (grack said we are leaving at like 5:30 am thursday...that should be fun times!!) should pull in to stafford mid afternoon or early evening...

friday morning i have my first shift at Blockbuster off of 610.
Friday night i get the awesome privelege of watching the seven of the awesomest kids ever!!!then i work at blockbuster saturday morning, sunday night, monday morning (im hopeing i can get as many hours at work as i can, i only am on the schedule for like 2 days aweek right now, im hoping i can just get other peoples hours once i start, its break and im banking on people that want to have time off...)
MONDAY NIGHT is party with the monday night bible study peeps!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!
so i guess i like staying busy.

right now, i am free to babysit:
friday the 26th all day(day after christmas shopping day...),
saturday night the 27th after 6pm,
sunday night the 27th(church in the am!!),
monday the 29th all day,
tuesday the 30th all day,
wednesday night the 31 after 8(midnight parties peeps!!)
thurday the 1st all day,
friday the 2nd after 6pm,
saturday the 3rd so far im free all day. but after this point i dont have my work schedule...but if you get me now for babysitting...this could work.....

i will be home from the 19th of december until around the 12th or 13th of january.

well, i have to get up early to go bake cookies so see you all soon!!!!

One semester down....!!!!

AMEN!!! HALLELUJAH!

it still shocks me that i am even here, in Florida, in college. i cant even fully comprehend that i have just completed my first semester of COLLEGE!!!! i really never thought i had a chance with college or even imagined i could ever go to school. But the cool thing is that God knew i could, and His plans are perfect and He provides for all needs, that is one thing i have learned this semester.
here are a few other random things that i have learned or that sum up my semester.
1. God knows everything.
2. the christian bubble, its hard to come out of when not prepared.
3. Friends are a great thing to have.
4. being away from home for long periods of time is very humbling.
5. no matter how much you have enjoyed a semester, it is still good at times to see it come to an end.
6. starting out strong isnt as important as finishing strong.
7. life back home, it goes on with out you.
8. balance in life, its something that is slightly difficult to accomplish
9. communication is extremely key in having a roommate
10. its a blessing to have a job.
11. Raman noodles....cant stand them
12. late night talks with friends are so awesome (i think there is a certain hour of the night where your guard just goes completly down and you are just you...makes for great conversation)
13. waffle house and sonics is an important part of BCF life
14. hair dyeing, thats how we roll in NAPE-TOWN (thats what we call our dorm, its really Napier)
15. Preview Day is the bomb, best chapel music, best food(gotta put ur best foot forward...!), classes are 95% going to be canceled or extremely shortened.
16. Leah, Ashton, Elizabeth, April = good times!!
17. relationships here move like 10x faster then anywhere else. i think this could be good, and bad...(they dont call us Bridal College of Florida for no reason...!!!)
18. bike rides into town, pretty much amazing, allthough, my chain is acting funny...i should get that fixed before i fall in a ditch
19. IT GETS COLD IN FLORIDA!?!???????? When did this happen!!???!! yeah, DEFINITELY found that out!!!
20. i figured out that when i am bored or super annoyed i clean, which i guess can be beneficial...

i have truly enjoyed this semester. and have no doubt that this is where im supposed to be. but i am so more then excited to return to Stafford. even if only for a short time. I think i am prepared for all the changes that have happened in the last 8 months. its going to be different...very different. cant wait to see yall!

Story Time with Becky

once upon a time, i was leaving for Jacksonville for a week, and as i was minutes from getting in the car i realized that my debit card and liscense were no longer anywhere to be found. though inconveinenced,i did not fear that i would not find them.
However, when i returned to school, i searched all through my dorm, in my laundry, under my bed, in the trash, in my friends car, in other rooms, in everything. neither card nor liscense was found. i begin to fear that i would have to go through the hideous process of canceling the card and calling the dmv...not my favorite thing in the world to do(plus, my drivers liscense pic is pretty decent!)...i also had to call my dad and tell him of my perdicament...that was fun!
well, in an effort to straighten up my room and make it livable, i began to sort my laundry. as i pulled out my grey global hoodie, i felt something hard, plastic-ish, rectangular, and small.
i GASPED and said to my self "can it be?! Hath my long lost object come back to me!!!!!"
i pulled out the two cards and Jumped for joy! twas a fun moment! i did my victory dance and took off down the hall to share my joy with my friends!. once i had settled down i called my dad and let him know that all hope had not been lost!

the day ends with a joyous discovery!!! i shall sleep better tonight!

the end

"If you faint in the day of adversity, your strength is small." Proverbs 24:10
This stuck me when i first read it, and then since then it has popped in my mind from time to time. particularly when im faced with temptation.
I have noticed that i am fine and everything is great when life peachy, but began to wonder if my strength is false. if i am faced with adversity, be it any form, spiritual, phyical, metaphoric, historic...i dont know. if any adversity at all comes in my way, Have i prepared for battle? do i trust God enough to get me through whatever it is, will i give in?
I have alot of growing still to go through. i dont believe that growth is something that is ever completely attainable, i think its a lifetime thing. but i would like to say that there willl come a time when if i am faced with adversity, that i will be able to stand firm in the Lord and what i a believe about Him. That His strength will be my strength in those times and i will Overcome all through Him.

"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up." Galations 6:9

"For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised." Hebrews 10:36

as good ole Mr. Mac Powel would say, "there is light at the end of this tunnel, shining bright at the end of the tunnel for me!" ....or something like that....

-When i burst out from this Christian bubble, i want to be able to stand firm, well grounded in my faith and relationship with Christ. That my life will cry out at all times that I am HIS daughter, and that HE is my Life.

3:20am

i cant believe im still awake right now....this is rediculous!!!!

i dont like titleing things....

sometimes life brings you to a point where you realize its better to wait. that happened for me tonight. it happens alot actually....
"wait for what?", you may be asking...
wait for God to take you through life instead of trying to make your own decisions.
God is at the driver's seat and im in the passenger seat...so im gonna curl up with a book and some tunes and enjoy the ride.

happy turkey day!

hope all r doing great!
ive had a great time in jacksonville and am really grateful for the kindness of friends. it has been nice to take a step back and relax. last week of classes r this upcoming week and then finals are the week after that. i am supposed to leave graceville sometime between the 12th and the 14th. staying in georgia til the 18th. and should return with the wonderful marks girls on either the 18th really late or the 19th.
im rather excited! less then 22 days til im home in stafford!

Say CHEESE!!!!

i am at a photoshoot. my friend, Maria, is studying photography and had some photo shoots to do this week for a class. so i tagged along. we are definitely jamming to some "Funky Town" straight from the 80's! its pretty spectacular!
first up is a guy with a bike, then some gals doing yoga stuff.... tis crazy

im rather excited that there is only 2 weeks of school after break, and then im off to georgia for a week, then ill be back in stafford by the 19th of december. (i dont know if im actually coming in on the 19th or 18th...soon though). God is amazing! i am so undeserving of his blessings, yet they keep coming...

oh as for coming back to school in January, trying to make it a deffinite, but please pray that the current plans for return will work out well. love yall and see you soon!

im in jacksonville!

im in MacClenney Florida(somewhere in jacksonville) for the week staying with some friends.
enjoy your holiday's!



i have a question. i really want to know the answer to this. Do we all have different convictions? like is it ok for some to do one thing and others not?

i have two polls on the side. i should be finding out what my work schedule will be like for break with in the next couple weeks.
Davis/Cliftons: i will be able to let you know in the next week or so if i will be back in time for the 19th. i should be, but im not 100% possitive yet.

let me just say, i miss you kids! all of them! pelts, davis, clifton, wire, garman, spencer, jessup, brown, hambone(sydney), and the list goes on and on.
love yas peace!

32 days

i miss stafford. 32 days and i should be home.

question...?

With a little less then 20 minutes left in my poll on "Were the Roman Guards Morons?" it is evident that it is a tie. im curious, if you voted yes, what were your reasons, and if you voted no, what were your reasons, if you didnt vote, but have a thought, please share! not trying to get a debate, im just trying to hear opinions, broaden my mind, its not fun to just think what i think without input from others.
thanks!!

youtube rocks

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTHu3Cu9SpU&feature=channel

wow this is awesome i love youtube!!! the Garmen prayer service like 2 years ago to go to iceland!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wLOQz7Ck-l8

go to this link! its from 2003 Colby, Bryan, Chad, Zach, Jason, Philip, Ben Brothers ( i think)
its quite awesome! Jason, i believe you are the creator of this video! good job!! 5 years later, i have found its existance!!

update of life...

My week in as few words as possible...

Sunday: Church, homework, church, homework, friends
Monday: Class, Chapel, Homework, friends, Class, other class was canceled!!!, homework/friends
Tuesday: Class, Work, Class (that was fun, i got off work 8 minutes before my next class, def had to change and grab my books! HHHAHAHAH great stuff!!) friends
Wednesday: Class, Chapel, homework, class, work, friends
Thursday: Class, clean for inspection day, homework, class, work, friends.
Friday: this day i shall elaborate on....
Got up at the usual time, got ready, its like 8am when i get out the door and i see comotion and people, not the normal thing to see at 8am here. but it was preview day and it was crazy. as the day progressed i realized how much i LOVE preview day!! i walk into my first class sad that i would miss the exciting preview day chapel, knowing my teacher would probably say yes (99%) we asked if we could go on a "field trip" to the chapel since only like 5 out of 14 ppl were actually in class, yeah we definitely got to go chapel. IT WAS AMAZING!!! there was really speaking, there was just MUSIC!!! the mens chorale sang abunch. when the came in the surrounded us and sang and then as they were getting on stage they sang....lets just say we had a "Holy Spirit Party" the chior joined them and we just had a full out praisein' Jesus time. Preview day is when people come to see the school so we had to leave our rooms super clean and have the doors opened as the ppl came in and looked at the rooms, Napier has sorta been a dorm divided because barely anyone knows of the existance of the people on the other side of the hall so we used this time to "meet" our fellow dorm ppl. i had already known everyone that lived in the dorm, but there are some that i have never really talked too so yeah it was kul to get to meet everyone.
i was in a Jesus-High mood the rest of the day after chapel so that was awesome! oh and as we were leaving the chapel it started to rain, this wouldnt be a problem except they had EVERYTHING set up outside on the lawn for lunch for the previewers! so it was mass chaos as they moved everything to the Gym.
i got my first BCF shirt so no i can actually represent my school!!!
my last class of the day was shortened to and it was history so we didnt do much.
Next was work. Love my Job!! love that i have a job!!!!! and though i was still in an awesome mood, there was a somber feel to the air this night. as i was walking into work, my boss was packing up his stuff. he hadnt been in all week so we knew something was up, just no one was telling us, and barely any of us know whats going on still. so yeah, kinda really not cool. but despite that, it was still great. ive come to find out that dishwashing is my calling. it seems to be my task most of the time....wether in the dishroom with the big industrial size dish washer,(i am so getting one of those for my family if i have a big family...its happening) or at the pot sink, its all good, i end up soaked at the end of it...tis quite fun.
when i got off work i relaxed with some friends coloring and watching Pocohantas and Bewitched. we did something really kul with disney characters.
then i Youtubed all of the stafford baptist chior videos i could find and watched them! i was happy to be able to escape back to stafford for that short time and sing with yall again! and see all your beautiful faces! i am so excited for christmas break!!!

so i had another AMAZING week!! i love it!
oh and you should Youtube this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdK-HUK6OhE&feature=related
its an amazing song!!

annie, this brings back memories!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIF3oTMHccs&feature=related
annie, go check it out if you get a chance.
i hope it brings back the same memory that it triggered for me.
ill post the memory later if you dont get it.

im in an article!!

i was the only new student on the hall for the first couple days back in August (whoa! ive been here for like 3 months!!!!). One of the newspaper people for bcf came by my room and asked me a bunch of questions and took some shots. and then i forgot about it.
then i was reading an article from our online campus news feed and was reminded of that interview. wondering if i had actually been put in the paper (it was an awkward interview cause i was excited so i had nothing to say but that i was excited, somehow i managed to answer her questions though...)
well i found the article and here is the link!
http://baptistcollege.edu/news_events/press/2008/new_stu_move.asp

Peace!!!!

Just Wondering...?

Reading the New Testament...does anyone else ever get the feeling that Roman guards were morons.....?
just for fun, vote on the lil survey thing to the right!

Attempt Numero Dos!

today, as i was walking back to my dorm from math class, i saw the blood drive trailer. memories flashed back to the last time i have tried to give blood with them. But for some reason, i wanted to try again! so i spent the next 10 minutes deciding if i really wanted to or should do it. i was excited and nervous, but i decided that me getting a bruise would be better then not trying at all, after all, if it happened again i would know how to take care of it.
so off i went to the blood drive!
as i walked into the trailer and signed in i was asked if i had ever donated before. well, i responded to this question by simply saying "i tried too...but it didnt work"
this then got the nurses in a frenzy...it was funny.
as i sat on the bench and the lady (same one that stuck me again) began to try to refigure out what had gone wrong before, she was about to give up,
not that this would have anything to do with it, but i really think it does, but as she was getting discouraged and i was thinking to myself "am i never going to donate blood! that is not cool!" then i prayed "Lord, i just want to give blood, please help her find my vein!!!"
just after that she found it and began to stick me with the needle. no pain this time like there was last time. i was really happy when it was over because it was SUCCESSFUL!!! i might have a slight little bruise, but she said i probably wont.
So!! im not a lost cause, i can give blood!! its just really hard to find my veins!!!
and hopefully soon i will know what blood type i am!!!

see! you cant even see anything!!!!

GOD GOT ME A JOB!!!

NO JOKE!!! i cant believe i forgot to tell you all!!!
Thank you so much for your prayers!!! Its ON CAMPUS too!!! AHHH!!!! i got hired on Friday in the cafeteria and then my first day was today! heheheh it was fun! the entire time i had "I will praise you with a dance" by casting crowns stuck in my head, and then the tune and some words of the veggie tell song "i love my lips" was in there too and it was funny to me when the two songs would come mingle together, hahah! and then, i was on dish duty, and a few times i would catch myself whistling "whistle while you work" from snow white and the seven dwarfs.
I feel so blessed and undeserving of all God has provided! im wrapped in His love and it feels great!!!!!! nice and toasty!!! if you ever wondered if Jesus hugs, i realized today that he does!!!

I HEART JEHOVAH JIREH!!!! God our PROVIDER!!!!

i signed up for my spring classes today. i have decided to take 7 classes next semester. your probably like, O My Word, she is crazy!!!
but!!!! one of my classes is chior, which is just singing.... 2 of my classes are history classes and i have had this professor this semester and know that it wont be that bad. i only have 2 new teachers, and so i know the teaching style and whats expected for the most part from them. i really dont think it will be horrible. i think i can do it, and i can of course do anything in Christ who strengthens me!

pray for mary

the surgery is next friday:
7th of November 2008 8:30am,

My mom is going to have surgery on her right knee.
physical therapy will be needed, if yall could keep her in your prayers that would be great. she already has difficulty with walking on her left leg, so yeah...
her right leg is normally known as her "good" leg. she has had multiple surgeries and hip replacements on her left leg/hip.

Camp Victory Experience

I just got back from a crazy awesome weekend at Camp Victory. i got the opportunity to work there at their 3rd-6th grader weekend retreat.
it was an awesome time and ill post details later (im slightly aggrivated right now because i just had one of those moments where you type all the details out and then something goes wrong and all you've typed no longer exists...). ive gotta go get my laundry done and then catch some Z's!!

thanks pops!!

my love for patsy cline and connie smith and loretta lynn and so many others is due to my dad! i love it!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_kkA0Zb6BY

PRAISE THE LORD!

PRAISE HIS NAME!!!
IM Gonna Walk AND Talk to Jesus, Stand with the Lord!

just wanted to share my joy of today! im so excited!!! i am EMPLOYED!!!! i have a job with the cafeteria, right now it is for wednesdays, not so sure the hours but hey! its a job! and he said that with me starting now, He can work me into the scedule for the spring!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!



God is amazing!

arrogance

Definition: an attitude of superiority manifested in an overbearing manner or in presumptuous claims or assumptions

as i sat in spiritual formation today and first i stared at my quiz i hadnt prepared for, then listened to the lecture, taking notes and such, it really hit me.
ive become arrogant in my faith. just to be transparent. in the mornings i choose sleep over Jesus, in the evenings, i push Him away for mindless hours of music, or homework, or computer. I talk over and over about everyone else needing to get right with Him when i still have this huge log lodged in my eye. I talk of how i want to change, i know all the steps to change, but my actions are lacking.

Incognito

yes michele, that is will! this is the saved by the bell crew, right to left, sam as lisa, jason as zack morris, Lauren as Kelly, and my global buddy will as slater.

these guys were "Gang Green". yes michele, the guy on the far right front is kevin.

This was awesome! these girls kept theirs a secret for a long time and came in late, they came storming in and that group above of guys above, yeah the girls came as the guys. something about being the Baptist College Trashbag Crew....

it was awesome! but from right to left let me see if i can get this, Lo came as Jeff, Mackinze i cant tell who she came as, Katie came as Kyle, Angela came as Kevin, cassie came as Joe, and Callie came as Brandon....if only you knew this group of guys and this group of girls you would fully understand the hilariousness of this..the girls did a great job!

we even had our own McCain and Palin played by Matt and Krista
and if you look way in the back right behind them, there is Hillary Clifton and her secret service.

This is Liz, A fellow queen, Queen of diamonds. and that is Lee, he was the doctor.

This is my friend April (Queen of hearts) and her Boyfriend Bryan, he was a farmer

Me and my roomie! we were part of a group of four, the Queens of the deck! i was spaids and she was clubs, My friend Liz was diamonds and April was Hearts

in the front here are my bff's Leah and Ashton, Leah is Dorthy and Ashton is a punk rocker/guitar hero fan.....

behind them to the left is Rebekah and Ashia, they came as eachother, and Rebekah is my prayer group leader this semester.

i can understand wanting to just hang out in the room, having homework and such...but i really cant understand NEVER desireing to get out of the room for anything but to eat or go to class! so many awesome opportunities come up all the time. why in the world would you choose to hermit in the room when you could go and experience some pretty awesome and amazing things!!!
i just wont ever understand. your only in college once! ENJOY IT!!!

my tuesday thus far...

had the alarm set for 6...for some reason i dont even remember hitting the snooze but i did and didnt wake up til 7:30, which made me have to rush and cut out things that i really had wanted to do....a whole hour and a half gone! must have needed the sleep....

I presented my Book Review today. Our professor told us to try to keep it under 10 minutes, yeah, def had alot more to say and ended with a 20 minute presentation. I was one of the guinea pigs so it was ok. Dr. Carrol told me that my review was good and that i have no reason to worry for going over. im just glad it is over! i also, in that same class, turned in an essay on using examples to prove a point. my point was on having a silver lining perspective.
no i have to finish my paper on the Salem witch trials for history, thank the Lord that my professor moved it back so its due monday instead of tomorrow!

Incognito is tonight. its the halloweenish party thing that BCM has, basically costumes and food and party= incognito. i think im going. if i do go ill be going as "the queen of spaids" along with some friends of mine who will be "the queen of diamonds" and "the queen of hearts" not so sure if i was supposed to put those in quotes or not....oh well!
ill post pics if i go when i get back. still havent decided...

right now i feel as if i have had 8 cups of highly cafenated coffee, when i havent even had one. or anything with caffeene in it as a matter of fact... tis a strange feeling....i dont recomend it...
not bad, but not good,

urg

i just took my 3rd bio test, on my last two i have freaked out in fear and then gotten an 88 and a 92 but this one i believe is so different. it was 4 time more difficult and i will be sincerely shocked if i pass. it was the shortest of the three tests but so many terms and so much... anatamy is not my deal....



other then that its been a good day, bout to go fix one of my essays and write the others....i took a rediculous amount of time writing that other essay, i def made it more hard then i should have...

k love all peace!

southern living!

i just enjoyed the best lunch ever, made by the sweetest of ladies ever! Hannah, your mom can cook!!! i just enjoyed the most tender turkey, the sweetest sweet potatos, some delicious homemade macarony and cheese, and so nice awesome Souther Style Sweet Tea!!!
Great company + Amazing food = the perfect way to spend a sunday afternoon!!!

Not to mention that i got to play with thier dogs and cat, get a tour of Slocomb, feed the catfish some leftover bread, AND feed the cows!!! oh my goodness!!! i want a cow!!!! i love animals! i love the country!!! i dont want to live in the city, give me a big piece of land with a catfish pond and some cows and a nice garden and dogs running everywhere any day! EVERY DAY!!!!!

real quick

life is great!
i am starting my search of how to get back to college. the following are ways that i have explored.
*ride back with a friend from school (the only one from va happens to be from about 20 or so minutes away, but she might be flying, not driving...)
*flight (the flights i have been able to find are priced between $300-$500 ONE WAY FLIGHT!! )
*bus (around $150-$200)
*hitchhike...(might take awhile, but it could work...my suitcase rolls....)
*some other way that i dont even know of yet....

so if yall wouldnt mind praying with me on this...really expensive things and i dont really have that money to spend on that stuff, the money i make over break will stricktly be for next semesters tuition and so yeah...

really, im not worried, i know God has a plan, but if yall have any suggestions or ideas or you would just pray for this that would be awesome!
gracias!
now im off to write them papers!
peace!

Clint! Jennifer! Nate!

ok so today (man the week just doesnt end with blessing, I LOVE IT!!) but today i was excited all day because there was a girls pj party night in Brackin. Two ladies that went to school here back between 1995-2000 came and spoke. any who, at first i did not realize that they had come here way back when (sorry peeps that went to school with them...this is not nesasarily saying that you are old....) any who... when i figured it out and they said what year they were here i decided to take a shot in the dark and ask them if they knew any of you, their names are Delana Smith and Candy Morris, dont know if that rings a bell, but they remembered who you were! and then inquired as to how yall are doing and such....

But i just thought that was neat-o! cause they came we just had a girls night and it was pretty sweet and now im about to go pass out after i read some because i have three papers and a project and i have to study for biology and help set up for the fall festival at church tomorrow...!!!!

k night!

taking a break

things on my end are doing great! ive had a really good week, even though it has been slightly cold, i guess you never can really run from the cold....

its been relaxing on so many levels, i took my last midterm today. and really have just had a chill week FULL to the BRIM of God's love and mercy and BLESSINGS!

a few highlights....

Monday: Chapel speaker for the week, John Cross, was amazing!

sang disney songs while baking cakes with my friend leah for ashton's bday

had alot of energy that night and it just kinda flowed into everything, major answer to prayer with my accountablility partner that night as well, so we were rejoicing and chatting in the prayer chapel for awhile.

Tuesday: THE BESTEST OF DAYS EVER!!!

Started with me waking for the day early, decided to rock the heals and do my hair.

did my devo in the Prayer Chapel, always awesome.

had breakfast with friends and laughed

took an easy midterm.

CHAPEL WAS AMAZ-ZA-ZING!! ill post the messages from this week up here later. and the Mens choral sang Oh happy day(sisteract2 version!!!) andwe sang some of my fav. songs in chapel.

hyper ALL DAY! went to my friends bday thing at a botanical garden

(we went to dothan, got burger king, went to the garden, ate there and had some cake and then walked around the garden taking pics and enjoying the lil scarecrow sculptures.)

came back and BCM had "Night of worship" out onthe dock. OH MY WORD!!

THE SPIRT WAS THERE AND IT WAS AWESOME!!!

after that, goofed off with the guys on the dock for a bit then went and goofed off with the girls inthe day room, making fun of "supposed-to-be-scary" tv shows and High school musical 2.

then my neighbors and i decided to be each others account. people. so we met together for the first time. shared our testimonies, it was awesome because we did not hide anything. sinners we are redeemed by Christ.

then i didnt want the day to end cause it was so good so i stayed up til like 2 and talked with my good friend ashton.

Wednesday

i was still quite hyper, and happy.

chapel was amazing AGAIN!!!!

great day....nothing bad, cafeteria food was even good.

went to church, had fun with the kids, we talked about creation, made playdough creatures and played hide and seek (a fav amoung the youngins)

thursday:

that was today, it was great. exam earlier wasnt bad.

cleaned for room inspections, had prayer group.

didnt have a quiz in Spiritual Form. so that was awesome.

had an all around good day.

went to the BESTEST most THOUGH PROVOKEING bible study ever

The Mark is what it is and it is very much so i would say amazing!

most of the time we only get through maybe 3 verses of scripture because we litterally TEAR up and break down the verse, going back to the Greek and everything! its pretty much AMAZING!!

now im finishing typing this and then im off to bed it is Ten to 1am. and im sorta tired...

ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD, GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!!!!

night all!

NEWS!!!!!

hello all, im working on getting all of my pics over the past years up on my new web page via shutterfly.com so if you want some kackles or anything, go check it out, im still working on it, right now the only things up are pics of some of your kids, (Garmans, Davis's, Clifton's, Brown's, etc.) and then some pics of my family...but trust me, there will be MANY MANY more to be put up!!! ive been working on editing ALL of my THOUSANDS of pics. and have finally finished, i think....

oh someone from q. town, does anyone have the email address or reg. address for the browns?

k so thats kul



http://beckycastle.shutterfly.com/

How He Loves

“How He Loves” by John Mark McMillan
He is jealous for me
Love’s like a hurricane,
I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are
and how great your affections are for me.

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.

Yeah, He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves.

So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we’re all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way
That he loves us,

Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves
He loves us,
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Chx6s3qXKt4
This is an awesome song, written through an awesome testimony.

3am

this weekend, i just dont know where the time went. i have three midterms this week, (2 for one class) and with in the next two weeks i have 3 papers due. biology and Geometry homework piles on and the normal amount of reading for Spiritual Formations remains. i feel as though ive accomplished nothing this weekend. i feel ok about my upcoming test. still awaiting the results of my Spiritual Form. midterm of doom..(i truthfully think i did ok on it).
there just seems to not be enough hours in the day.
so much needs to get done, no time to do it.

Scooters/Mopeds

i know im probably reallly insane for event thinking about this, but i am seriously considering the having a scooter or moped. i need something that will get me to work (since i cant find a job aroung graceville i must venture on to find one elsewhere), or to church on sundays and is fuel efficient and inexpensive.
i know i dont have the money right now and probably wont for a while, but i am going to start saving for what i think is the solution to my lack of a vehicle.
it may sound completely crazy and i know that its not going happen for a while, but i need something to get me to work because i need a job. right now people are telling me that i can use their cars and such which is awesome. but i dont like "mooching" off of people. i dont like having to rely on things because i feel like im inconvienencing them.
its hard to be independent when you dont have a job! URG!!!!

becky castle: graceville's newest hair cutter!

two of my friends decided to let me CUT their HAIR!!!
they didnt hate it so i guess all is well then!!

stretching steps

i have been learning that i am susceptible to addiction. addiction is only good when addicted to Jesus. so in attempt to refocus and see if I have discipline, i decided to take a break from a few things.
this wednesday marks a month with-out dessert, candy, chocolate, or anything like that. you might think I'm strange for having gone without this. and on thursday, i will be beginning a 30 day absence from Facebook.com
as a college student, facebook is a fact of life. but if not careful, it can get in the way. as i believe it has begun to get in the way of school, and of my relationship with Christ.
It has come to my attention that the choices i make now will affect my future. i hope that the decisions i am makeing now will help shape my future in a way that will Glorify the Lord.

last thought. it seems to me that conviction comes without warning. something that you have thought to be right all your life may bring conviction if you are truly seeking the Lord. thats happened alot recently in my life. clearing off my stage is difficult. and there are things that have become idols in my life that i am not happy about. this is my time to change. this day and everyday, for as long as it takes, i will clear off the stage of my life.

if confused, here is a song by Ross King that ill explain all. "clear the stage"

Clear the stage and set the sound and lights ablaze

If that's the measure that it takes to crush the idols.

Chuck the pews and all the decorations too

Until the congregations few then have revival.

Tell your friends that this is where the party ends

until you're broken for your sins you can't be social.

Then seek the Lord and wait for what he has in store

and know that great is your reward and just be hopeful

Cause you can sing all you want to.

Yes you can sing all you want to

you can sing all you want to

And don't get me wrong, worship is more than a song.

Take a break from all the plans that you made

And sit at home alone and wait for God to whisper.

Beg Him please to open up his mouth and speak

And pray for real upon your knees until they blister.

Shine the light on every corner of your life

Until the pride and lust and lies are in the open.

Then read the word and put to test the things you've heard

Until your heart and soul are stirred and rocked and broken.

Cause you can sing all you want to.

Yes you can sing all you want to

you can sing all you want to

And don't get me wrong, worship is more than a song.

Anything I put before my God is an idol.

Anything I want with all my heart is an idol.

Anything I can't stop thinking of is an idol.

Anything that I give all my love is an idol.

We must not worship something that's not even worth it.

Clear the stage and make some space for the one who deserves it.

Cause I can sing all I want to.

Yes I can sing all I want to

I can sing all I want to

And still get it wrong, worship is more than a song.

And you can sing all you want to.

Yes you can sing all you want to

You can sing all you want to

But don't get me wrong, worship is more than a song.

an update for ya

my midterm thursday went well. i really feel confident that i did well and am hoping that my grade on it will help and not hinder my grade, if at all possible i would like to maintain the A that i have in that class.

I was sorta aware of this when i came to BCF. but apparently i am attending the "Bridal College of Florida". i think clint, jennifer, nate, and hannah can attest to this fact.
there is something called the "first semester curse" that is when you go through some sort of dating drama. directly, this has not affected me. but indirectly as has happened since middleschool, i am affect by seeing my friends here couple off. i just dont understand how you can possibly say that you are going to start dating someone after knowing them for a month or less... it is just extremely dumb. besides the fact that its the first semester of college....tis crazy. i dont anticipate getting wrapped up with this bridal college stuff. the guys that are freshman with me now dont really impress me, besides half of them are younger then me. and thats just weird. so with the fact standing that you leave BCF with either a husband, kid or job, im leaning more towards the Job part. that would be really nice.

that was real random, i was just telling my brother about it earlier today so it was on my mind.. but its 2:50am here (so its 3:50am in stafford) so none of my thoughts will be makeing any sense.

ok so last monday i took my bio test, it went well, i think i may have said this already. then thursday i took the SF test, it went well too as i have said. Monday i have a Geometry test. Proofs are not my strong suit but i think ill do fine. English is strange, i have to take this weird test on tusday and thursday this week and it wont count against me its just to see if ive learned anything so far. then NEXT tuesday i have the essay part of my midterm for English, then the comprehension and gramar part is on NEXT thursday. history i have a midterm in a week. that will conclude the tests. but the time is approaching fast that it will all be over. which means that i have a 2500 word book review to do, a 1500-2000 word research paper on the salem witch trials thats due in two weeks. and all the lil stuff that is due everyday.
ive got some busy weeks ahead, but i love it

PLEASE PRAY for:

• finances for school to work out.
• my shoulder, i think i pulled something and ive iced it and heated it, nothing is working.
• me to find a job.
• the decision for next summer, Global? Home and a job? Camp Keystone(paying job)? something else...?
• time and resourse management.

i really just want to see a familiar face. i dont know. i love it here. love everything about it. but to not see anyone familiar (as in from stafford or such) is getting sorta ruff. its only mid october, i still have 2 1/2 months to go til christmas break. its been a bit since i have seen ppl. and yeah. i miss yall. i know i will be fine. weekends are sorta difficult and then mondays too because ppl get all excited that they get to go home for the weekend then they come back and are all excited bout the weekend and share stories, and i love hearing them but still it just like a lil bit more dificult cause its not liek i can just hop in a car and go home for the weekend....kinda far away....

can i entice anyone to come to the peanut festival?!?!? its a big fair with a rodeo and dirt bikes and fun fair stuff and peanuts!!! it is the last friday of October!! it should be loads of fun!!!!!!!!

k love yall its 3:07am here and im ready to hit the hay.

my first mid term

i have my first mid term tomorrow. it is for spiritual formations and unless they are just trying to mess with us the students that have had this class before said it was a difficult one. so tommorow at 1:30 central time (2:30 eastern time) i will be in a classroom trying to wrack my brain for the answers. hope fully i will do well. im pretty confident that i know the material. but if you could pray for me that would be great. that my mind will be clear of everything but spiritual formation!!! and that i get sufficient rest tonight.
thanks love you all!

to all of those who have graced this earth longer then i...

Are you frightened by the site of those pesky grey hairs on your head?

Well have no fear!
Proverbs 16:31 will have all of your answers!!
"Grey hair is a crown of Glory,
it is gained in a righteous life!"

roomies

i think my roommate thinks i am crazy. i could be my random shouting when i have energy or my lack of sense at times. its really fun having a roommate though. in my whole life the only time i ever shared a space with another person was when i would go on trips with friends and when i went to Global.

but all in all. even though we are complete opposites, we still share some things in common and it is awesome to get to share my college experience with my roomie...though i may annoy at times...

thats a bubble pipe, see we are both sorta crazy...so it works!

my brain is officially fried,

i just got out of biology, we had a test today. no fun.

but it is over now, i am pretty confident that i passed,
now begins the brain recovery process. i think im going to bike onover to the football game.
so i called someone about a job i saw in a job list we have.
the thing is though that the job list asked for a man because its yard work and washing the ladies car every once in a while, but it was the only thing i could do for location sake, so i called her...got the answering machine. but i think im a pretty tough gal, i think i can do yard work and wash someone car, ive done it before...so hopefully it will work out...please pray that it does or that something else comes available.
the drug store i applied at is in need of full time workers during the day, and i have school so that wont work, but she said that if she cant find that one full time person then she will hire two part time workers and that im up on the list for it then.
i really wouldnt mind working full time, i just have class in odd moments, im signing up for my classes for next semester soon, i know what i want to take, but i am hopeing that i can maybe work my schedule so that my classes are all in the morning or something like that so that i have more work availability. though i love how i have my classes arranged now, i do realize now that it makes it harder for an employer to work around the schedule i have...
ne who, theres the update for yall.
peace!

new members of my family!

i havent found names for them yet, but these are the new members of my college family!!

im quite excited and shall post thier names when they have been given to them, ive got some ideas.....but im not sure yet.

to copy or not to copy, that is the question!

this is something i have been thinking about lately. brought on by a sermon in chapel.
the issue at hand is what is legal or not legal when it comes to copying CD's. is it ever right or ok? how do you all feel about it? if a friend lets you borrow a cd, are you someone that strictly listens to it and then gives it back, or are most likely to copy it to your computer for you ipod or whatever? do you think it is right or wrong? what are your thoughts?
just a thought, just wanting some thoughts of others in the mix!

in biology class...

yeah, i know, im on the internet in class, but we are talking about genetics, which happens to be the only thing from biology that i know and understand so its all good, i can hear and understand what he is saying!

i am very excited that this is my last class of the day! but, i must say i have felt sorta not myself all day, after my math class this morning i went back to bed at 10am and did not awake until 1pm. i guess i needed the sleep, weird thing is that i got a good amount of sleep this weekend, ok well im off, i shouldnt really be on the internet...

oh

THANK YOU to my dear sunday school class! i miss you guys and my spirits were brighted when i recieved the care-package today! love you all and will see you in December!!!
Thank You Jason and Tracee and everyone!!!, oh Bethanee, your pictures ware beautiful and are now a part of my dorm wall! love you!

...

today, i should be writing my paper on the "theory of evolution" or maybe even the one on "word origins" i should do my chapel assignment and my biology homework. i should do my spiritual formations homework or even my history research for my paper on "the salem witch trials"

that is what i should do. but instead im on blogger...procrastinating...
what i will probably do before i write my papers or do my homework is wash the cereal bowl that i used for my breakfast, or maybe i will do some more picture collaging on the wall. i really dont know yet, i just know that my evolution paper is staring me in the face and i keep turning my head from it.
oh well. i shalt enjoy my self, and i know i will write my paper, im just..yeah, procrastinating...

Happy Birthday BCF!!!

my bcf alum friends, guess what! it was BCF's 65th birthday this week! and doing it BCF style they have taken over our gym for the week (thats what i dont like about it...) and there is a big event planned for tonight! as all the old people began to arrive earlier this week it was crazy. and tonight, as i sit out in the beautiful breeze i watch many people walk by, mostly old people. the school invited people from the Florida Baptist Convention and im thinking some alum too to this dinner. the Chorus is going to sing for the people and then serve everyone their dinner. people from the staff are attending as well. its the big thing here today.



i think it is cool because:

1) the old people are pretty cool. most of them are nice, and its like im watching some of them reunite as if they havent seen each other in decades.

2) everyone is all dressed up nice, i feel like its sunday morning, even though the sun is going down instead of coming up....

3) some of the students here have parents and grandparents that are linked to the school and so its cool to see them reuniteing with thier family!



cons:

1) the gym has been closed the last THREE days!!! not fun! but i got to go on bike rides so thats fun.



my observations:

1) because of the dinner, we got corn dogs and curly fries while we see the carts of STEAK and fancy food pass us as we eat the corn dogs on paper plates and drink from plastic cups (theyre using the good plates and cups for the guests....

2) we noticed in the bigging of the week that we were missing tables in the dining hall....

3) there are some people here that are not that bright, because even after all these changes and seeing things taken into the gym and the gym being closed, there were STILL people asking what was going on!



well i believe that this concludes the day...



my bcf alum friends, i ask, why are you not here!!!???? but then i remember that you are all in Virginia...16+ hours away









oh and praise report! i am now officially going to be attending New Prospect Baptist Church, THANKS HANNAH!!! i love it there, and im going to be helping with the kids on wednesday nights!

FYI: i love how everything connects in life, like today, Mrs. Rosie from the Student Services place was coming around doing the room inspections today and she says "becky, we have a mutual friend!" and i was like "really?" thinking it would either be the cliftons or nathaen...
she replys "Yes, Nathaen Hendrix!!" i just think it is still crazy! and Nate and hannah, i met someone form your church in Geneva in addition to josh, Stephanie, not sure of her last name, but its crazy! i love connecting the world, i heard one of my friends saying that it has to be the hand of God that placed us all here, because that little bit of connecting just has no comparrison to the other connecting people that ive met in the last couple of months! its nuts! i love it!

i need to take a minute..

ok is anyone good with finances that can help me come up with a budget? that can help me logically go through with me and help me figure out some things?

gigattattgig

its not giberish.
"God Is Good All The Time All The Time God Is Good."

ive heard those words and said them myself quite often. but i just heard them out of my sister-in-christ who is hurting right now. I sometimes forget the true meaning and impact that those words have. Its those words that we must all cling to when hurting and when at peace. when happy and when sad.
our God is the only TRUE God! There is none like Him! He is constant and His love is unconditional! He is there for us ALL the time even when we have turned our back on Him, He is still faithful and He still loves us no matter what!
though this is true, we all may still feel pain. but those words are healing. they are words of strength. When we feel the pain, we must cling to these words. i might sound simple, you might not agree with me. but as i look around at the pain that life is throwing at some of my friends, or the frustrations and worry and watever it is that life is throwing at me, its that phrase, those 12 words, that bring me hope! and i know He will provide. He will provide everything that i need. He will provide me with the strength to get through the day even when i feel like the world is against me.

SURPRISE!!!!!!!

my friend cut my hair!

storytime with becky

i had been planning to go to the gym today since yesterday.
my friend that i was going to go with kinda bailed on me but i was still going to go so i asked another friend! so it was set, i was going to go work out, not that i needed a buddy, but its less lonely if your not the only one.
the last time i had been to the gym i had pushed myself more then ever before and was determined to do the same today.
sitting at dinner, my roommate asked if i wanted to walk to the store with her after dinner to get some muffin mix. i had a decision to make. i knew i wanted to go to the store because it was a beautiful night and i heart the outdoors! but if i went on this walk, which isnt a short one by any means, would i still go to the gym or would i count the walk as my workout for the day?
i hate making decisions so as i walked with my roomie to the store i contemplated in my head if i would still go to the gym. it was a good thing i went to the gym cause as i walked in the store i realized that i needed shampoo, toothpaste and safety pins(my backpack has a hole i must fix).
as we walked back from town in the pitch darkness, i decided to mess with my roomie who is afraid of the dark, or at least what might lerk in the shadows, by mentioning off handedly certain parts of certain scary movies about things that happen in the dark....that was really funny...

anywho, as we got closer to the school my friend that i was going to go to the gym with called me, and i decided at that moment that i would go to the gym still.
im glad i did because i really dont feel tired from it, i just feel pretty good, slightly in pain from crunches(definitly didnt remember them hurting this much) and my legs kinda feel like jello from the eliptical(30 minutes, top resistance).
i cant really notice a difference in my appearence from my working out and trying to eat healthy, but on the inside i can, i just feel more healthy. and i have reallized that i need to up the water intake because i was getting dehydration headaches and was just lacking in the H2O department. and i have decided to go on a break from sweets(i really like doing this) for 30 days. tis a fun time!
so the end of my story is that i had a decision, i waited til the last moment to make it, and i enjoyed going to the gym! it was awesome! and i loved the walk because i rarely get to have conversations with my roomie about pointless stuff or even really meaningful stuff and that is what happened on our little walk....o did i mention that as we turned a corner, two little dogs ran up to attack us! (they were ankel biters)

well i have some more math to do so i must go to take care of that....alas, my and geometry do not mix....

Crazy awesomeness!!!

my spiritual formations professor has given us a suggested way to do a devo. where we pray first, chatt with God, and then we ask specifically for Him to reveal something to you in the passage you read for the day. a passage that is not random and that is a chapter or more.

God has been revealing things to me lately and placing certain things on my heart. i have just had a desire to know him more.
today i specifically prayed for wisdom. wisdom on who God really is. wisdom on what i need to get straight with Him. wisdom is what i asked for. just after that i began to read from my passage for today. it was proverbs 2, as i am currently reading through Proverbs...
THIS was the passage for my devotion today.

if you have gone to the site and read that then you know what i am speaking of when i say that God is STINKIN AWESOME! so faithful!
CAN I GET AN AMEN!!!!!!!

i heart learning!!!!

shin splints?

ive been having pain in my right leg when i run. it runs all in my shin and feels like the inside of my leg is on fire. i shared this with a few friends in separtate times, they all thought i might have a thing called "shin splints"
so i googled it. i have more knowledge on it and what causes it. i shall try the home "remedies" which is just kinda stretching before i run and massageing the muscle. putting ice on it. grinning a bearing it.... jk thats not one of them. but they also say that it is caused by overpronation. which sounded from the explanation like what is referred to as "flat feet" so i will do the wet foot test tomorrow to see if that is it.
it also said i should get shock absorbing insoles...this is wierd because i run on an eliptical...to me it doesnt seem like its shocking me...weird i dont know.....i just know that when your leg feels like it is inflamed, that cant be good!

but it will be fine just gotta try this new way of healing it...

plus's of the day

1.today after dinner. it was raining, i went and sat on the dock. i love it!!!

2. although i think i failed my test, its over and im glad.

3. i got to meet with my accountablity friend that i have for my Fav. class "Spirtiual Formations", i needed that meeting. it gave me hope for the semester.

4. for lunch today, we had chicken and dumpling's. while it could not compare to mrs. Dorris's (i really hope thats how to spell her name.), it was still really good. and then we had chicken nacho's tonight, two meals i love.

5. it rained! i hope to see a rainbow soon!!!!

tonight

tonight i went out to the dock for some me and Jesus time. alas, He didnt meet me there....or i just wasnt listening well enough. im still learning how to do that.

now my mind in unsettle and i cant sleep though i am really tired.
oh well tomorrow will be fun!

my school addy

5402 college dr. #65
graceville, FL 32440

thats my addy(hehe i have my own mailbox!!!) nothing that comes to me is for my parents, its for me..it make me happy cause i never got mail at home....

big weekend in graceville! and im bein fo real!!

Friday night, i got to help out at Parents Night, which is when all the parents of bcf drop off their lil ones and some of the students vollunteer to feed them, teach them bout Jesus, play games with them and just have fun!
it was AWESOME! We split them up into two groups, the 5 and below, and then the older ones were in the other group. im sure most of you know which group i went to!!! in case you dont, i went with the YOUNGER group! My fav!!!!!!!
but it made me miss all my lil ones back in Virginia such as the Cliftons, Garmans, Davis's, Wires, all my kids from work, the Spencer's, and the list continues....
each of the lil ones would remind me of a different person.
they were so cute!!!!

Tonight(aka Saturday), we had a "food and fun on the move" which is a progressive dinner. we went to our PROFFESSORS houses!!! and they FED US!!! we did play games at two of the houses which was really fun! it was an all around amazing time!
now im bout to go to a NapeTown parte in the dayroom, disney princess movies and some game cause "dear i love you but i just cant smile"
to translate, NapeTown=Napier(my dorm)

decisions decisions decisions

ive got some decision i have to make. im not a decisive person and i dont like to dissappoint people so that makes it more difficult.



Decision one. should i work with a camp that will pay me this summer, return to global where i will have to raise money, or return home for the summer to find a job that may or may not pay well. What does God want me to do? How can i tell if its me following God's will and not me focusing on the logical choice?

Decision two. Should i come home for winter break?

Decision three. Do i need a job because i think i do or am i not relying on God? Why has God not provided me with a job yet? how am i to be able to continue to go to school if i have no job and student loans do not pay for all of my schooling expenses?

my mind hurts and im slightly anxious.


Decision Four. How shall i decorate my room?

Decision Five. How do i become more social with out lacking in my studies? and how do i find the right friends, ones that will encourage and ones where we grow together in Christ?

im thinking that some of these are just questions more then they are decisions....
well i have class soon so i must go.

Love bugs, oh how i hate them!

this little bug is the most annoying thing ever. i got attacked by a bunch of them today....it was not fun!

love bug oh lovebug, please go away!
never come back! not on any day!
you destroy our cars,
you flyin in our hair,
you annoy us so much,
please leave, thanks a bunch!

Back! also the story of the day....

yep i did not get anything blog related for a week. it was tough, and the moment i realized that it was tough was when i realized that that isnt good....i was addicted to blogging! no bueno. from now on i will not get on as much as before, i am limiting myself.

Today though, there is a story to be told of my day...

i put on my tennis shoes, this adventure was in need of tennis shoes, not flipflops, and grabbed a bottle of water, proof of identity, a pen, and some sunglasses and then set out on my hunt for a job.
i decided to do this strategically first, i would go from the closest store to the farthest searching EVERYTHING!!! i went to a hospital, a nursing home(i found myself in the ghetto after this one, that was fun, i was kinda scared cause i was on drug dealer lane...amen for broad daylight though!!), 2 furniature stores, a drug store, 4 restraunts, the piggly wiggly, a dry cleaners, family dollar and the dollar general, and each of the 8 stores that are in the lil graceville outlett mall, and a gas station and a few little random shops. each time i walked out disappointed and discouraged. the two perspective job locations were, "cooks discount drugs" and a lil appiance store in the outlet mall. the appliance store hours are not compatible with my school scedule and the discount drug store closes too early aka is not compatible with my school schedule.
thats the only part about living in a small town, everything closes early, and what doesnt close early already has too many people working at it, and the majority of the stores and such are so low on business that they cant afford to have more then like 3 workers.
i walked around in the florida heat wearing long bluejeans(legs were not shaved and its not good to wear shorts when looking for a job), sneakers, and a longsleeve shirt(it was the nicest shirt that i would be comfortable goin to a possible job interview in and then still be able to walk long ways in)
i was ok when i was told for the 10th time that there were no job openings, but at 15 i started to break down and get really discouraged. i had been out for 2 hours already. then when the 25th and last time came i just about broke down in tears, after all, i had seriously gone EVERYWHERE in walking/biking distance and hadnt found anything.
but God sent a Guardian Angel. i say that because i really feel as if she was. i was about 3 miles from the school and had just left the last possible place, i was not looking forward to that 3 miles because i felt like a failure and did not want to have to walk and then have to think about being a failure all three miles, when someone pulled up in front of me on the side of the road and waved for me to come to the car. as i approached the car i recognized the driver. it was the kind Christian lady that i had met at the DryCleaners an hour and a half earlier, she hadnt been able to offer me a job but when she waved me over on the side of the road, she offered me a ride backto the school. i had been about to cry and then felt truly touched by the kindness of the woman. as she drove me back she shared with me that since i had left the cleaners she had been thinking about me and had spoken with her friend who works at "the circle grill" which is a lil restraunt in town (that had turned me down earlier) and she said that her friend was going to see what he could do to help me out.
I just lived the story of the Good Samaritan, i have heard that story in so many sermons lately, in chapel yesterday and a few podcasts recently. I am very grateful for this good samaritan that helped me out today.
all in all, i didnt actually find a job today, but tomorrow i am going to the "circle grill" to see a man about a job! hopefully i get it. and its not too bad of a walk, i gotta see if i can find a shorter route though....

...update...break

i have realized that im on here too much, writing too much on this thing. i will now take this moment to say that my arm is doing well, still bruised, but what ever. i am ill today, just havent felt well all day...sinus junk i think. but i will be fine. school is great. i love it. but my job is kinda non existant. the lady went to the hospital the day before i was supposed to start the job and i think she had the baby, but she hasnt gotten back with me yet, since its been a lil over 2 weeks since hearing from her at all even after calling her a bunch, as much i know i would love that job, i must search for another. so im back on job hunt mode. i went to tallahassee this past weekend to visit some friends. that was awesome! im back at school now, i missed it so i am glad to be back!

now with all my updates done i shall say this that i will be taking a break from blogging and reading blogs for a week. possibly more, on wednesday of next week ill report back with if im continueing this. text me or call or emial me if needed. talk with you all in a week. love you

nothing to worry about...

i havent cryed over missing people in awhile, until last night, when i was emailing a friend, and about five minutes ago i held back some tears as i read something from a friend. im not homesick. im just people sick. i miss being around you all. "you never know what you got until its gone". and though yall might not be gone, i am, and i thank God for helping me to fully appreciate all of you, even though i had to leave you to do so. my heart hurt today. but im ok, it will pass. phone calls r hard at times, because i just want to hear yall and talk with yall, but then i realize that i miss you all. i get excited to read your blogs and i laugh at your stories. i can hear you speak as i read them. today, i wish i could have taken yall with me to school. Who wants to come to BCF!!!????!?!?!?! its an awesome school! rather affordable for a school!! any takers?!?!?!?

pictures

night one
the next mornign
morning day 2 morning day three
this evening

"the weird stick of the month"

just got back from donating blood. let me share my experience.
walked by the trailer like 4 times til i finally decided, "im going to give blood!" jk i had already decided that like a week ago, but i kept forgeting my id in my room so i had to go and get it. well i stepped up into the trailer and was greated by a funny guy nurse person. i signed in, answered all those "have you...." questions and then got my finger pricked to test my iron, (which, fyi, my iron is good!) and then i got the blood pressure taken, my temperature taken(it was just a lil stip of paper, i didnt even know how they were reading it...) then i got sent down to the next available seat, but i first had to jump over the area that some blood had spilt on the floor, actually it was alot of blood...but yeah, so i went and the lady tried to find my vein in my left arm, it took a minute, but the vein was too small. so she tried to find one in my right arm...theni had to move chairs because she found one in my right arm and i was in the left arm seat....
so she began to hook me up, apparently my vein was sideways...? whatever that means... and so she was like "its ok, i can do it" so i trusted her. i looked out the window as she began the process of sticking me with the needle, (except i looked when she rubbed the iodine on me, that wasnt bad at all, its just iodine!) ok well so im lookin out the window and shes tellin me to squeeze the ball, she sticks me and i can feel the needle moving around under my skin, she was having trouble finding the vein again WITH THE NEEDLE IN MY ARM!!!! and so then she found it and it was workin well. at least i thought it was, there was some discomfort in my arm...dont know if that has anything to do with it but im just saying....
so she comes back over and starts messing with it again, and then she proceeds to tell me that my blood has stopped pumping out of my arm..at this point she says to me "just to warn you this arm will have a bruise"(great, anyone remember what happened after i went to the emergency room last year? that bruise lasted forever!!!)..no more blood flow. so she is trying to figure out why my arm is so retarded, (bless her heart, i felt so bad that my arm was trouble) and so she has another nurse come over and look at it. they have me squeeze the ball some, and they tighten and loosen that strap thing thats on my arm and then they conclude that they must stop what is happening. supposedly whenever i would squeeze it would flow and then stop, and then flow and then stop....a process that is apparently not supposed to happen..... who knew!
and so she cleans it up and removes everything and im like(in my head) "does this mean i cant ever give blood, will what you have taken from me be any help to anyone, what just happened"

another nurse comes up and bandages me and says that he is going to ace bandage my arm a little tight because of the bruise, and he says that it should hurt except for maybe a few days, but if it still hurts to call him and we will see what has happened or something like that,

the nurse that stuck me came and explained everything, she said that my vein where she stuck it was too close to my valve and that the valve was preventing it from working. and she said that she wouldnt be sticking me anymore today because my left arm has too small a vein and my right arm she had already stuck once, but that i could donate in the future, she showed me where on my arm i should tell the next nurse to stick me. but she assured that my right arm does have two good veins, but one was by a valve(the one she stuck) and the other isnt, she just had a 50/50 of getting it right and got it wrong.

All in all, it was a learning experience, and i got to have juice (orange pinapple) it was tasty, and i now know that i have weird veins and am the "weird stick of the month"
ill post pics of my bruise as it progresses, if it is anything like the one that i had got from the emerency room then these will be awesome pics!

oh and my arm is sore, cant really bend it, so thats fun...hahah