The Future

Graduation. It's close.
I'm not holding my breath any more.
I'm embracing the uncertainty certain the Lord will guide the way.
There is a plan, and it doesn't look like what is expected and it may not seem like much. But that is okay. Rushing leads to reaction. I want to know the steps I take are directed solely by the Lord. I'm operating on His timing and trying to put intentional thought and prayer to my steps, allowing Him to write the story instead of my old way of create the scheme and then have Him check it off. He isn't meant to just be a box checker.
He creates the material the box is made of, shapes it perfectly for the plans He has, and opens the box for us periodically just to see enough for each moment.

Thank You, Jesus

"My Lord is STRENGTH
& truth.
This, I've Learned
from the
time of youth.
But As I Age,
it is made clear
and I cherrish it
MORE & MORE
each year."


"There is not
but one thought
none of this
is all for not.

Christ hath seen
all my needs
and He is still
at work in me."

Words jotted at some point during this last semester, during the long days and moments when the threat or actual take over of doubt and despair weighed heavy on me. Graduation is in 5 days. The grace of my Savior, Jesus, still amazes me!  I read these words, words written and hung on my calendar in that little space of my own, when in a moment of solitude in that room-thinking, reflecting, planning, breathing.
Despair says I doubt my Savior is near. It says I don't believe His love. It says my confidence has shifted from being sourced by Christ- the overflowing well, to self- the broken cistern.
SO in those moments, I would look at these words, think on His goodness, and HE would provide. O, but even that sentence seems conceded for it was not of me that my thoughts moved from despairing to seeing His face. THAT came from HIM and HIM alone. Because He lives in me. The Holy Spirit, the GOD MOST HIGH reminded me that...
Strength will RISE as we wait upon the Lord. He IS truth. He is STRENGTH. He is my Rock, Redeemer, the Restorer and is Real.

YHWH the Most High is He.

"All my unanswered questions DON'T change the WISDOM OF YOUR WILL." -Sovereign Grace Music

"The more I learn eucharisteo, Less likely I am to Israelite complain and more likely I am to lament, a cry that trusts His heart." -Ann VosKamp

Thank you, Jesus.

"If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory." (Colossians 3:1-4 ESV)

"But when Christ had offered for all time a single sacrifice for sins, he sat down at the right hand of God, waiting from that time until his enemies should be made a footstool for his feet. For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.
 And the Holy Spirit also bears witness to us; for after saying,
 “This is the covenant that I will make with them
  after those days, declares the Lord:
 I will put my laws on their hearts,
  and write them on their minds,”
 then he adds,
 “I will remember their sins and their lawless deeds no more.”
 Where there is forgiveness of these, there is no longer any offering for sin.
 Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his flesh, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.
 For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. Anyone who has set aside the law of Moses dies without mercy on the evidence of two or three witnesses. How much worse punishment, do you think, will be deserved by the one who has trampled underfoot the Son of God, and has profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and has outraged the Spirit of grace? For we know him who said, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay.” And again, “The Lord will judge his people.” It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
 But recall the former days when, after you were enlightened, you endured a hard struggle with sufferings, sometimes being publicly exposed to reproach and affliction, and sometimes being partners with those so treated. For you had compassion on those in prison, and you joyfully accepted the plundering of your property, since you knew that you yourselves had a better possession and an abiding one. Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised. For,
 “Yet a little while,
  and the coming one will come and will not delay;
 but my righteous one shall live by faith,
  and if he shrinks back,
 my soul has no pleasure in him.”
 But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls." (Hebrews 10:12-39 ESV)