in biology class...

yeah, i know, im on the internet in class, but we are talking about genetics, which happens to be the only thing from biology that i know and understand so its all good, i can hear and understand what he is saying!

i am very excited that this is my last class of the day! but, i must say i have felt sorta not myself all day, after my math class this morning i went back to bed at 10am and did not awake until 1pm. i guess i needed the sleep, weird thing is that i got a good amount of sleep this weekend, ok well im off, i shouldnt really be on the internet...

oh

THANK YOU to my dear sunday school class! i miss you guys and my spirits were brighted when i recieved the care-package today! love you all and will see you in December!!!
Thank You Jason and Tracee and everyone!!!, oh Bethanee, your pictures ware beautiful and are now a part of my dorm wall! love you!

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today, i should be writing my paper on the "theory of evolution" or maybe even the one on "word origins" i should do my chapel assignment and my biology homework. i should do my spiritual formations homework or even my history research for my paper on "the salem witch trials"

that is what i should do. but instead im on blogger...procrastinating...
what i will probably do before i write my papers or do my homework is wash the cereal bowl that i used for my breakfast, or maybe i will do some more picture collaging on the wall. i really dont know yet, i just know that my evolution paper is staring me in the face and i keep turning my head from it.
oh well. i shalt enjoy my self, and i know i will write my paper, im just..yeah, procrastinating...

Happy Birthday BCF!!!

my bcf alum friends, guess what! it was BCF's 65th birthday this week! and doing it BCF style they have taken over our gym for the week (thats what i dont like about it...) and there is a big event planned for tonight! as all the old people began to arrive earlier this week it was crazy. and tonight, as i sit out in the beautiful breeze i watch many people walk by, mostly old people. the school invited people from the Florida Baptist Convention and im thinking some alum too to this dinner. the Chorus is going to sing for the people and then serve everyone their dinner. people from the staff are attending as well. its the big thing here today.



i think it is cool because:

1) the old people are pretty cool. most of them are nice, and its like im watching some of them reunite as if they havent seen each other in decades.

2) everyone is all dressed up nice, i feel like its sunday morning, even though the sun is going down instead of coming up....

3) some of the students here have parents and grandparents that are linked to the school and so its cool to see them reuniteing with thier family!



cons:

1) the gym has been closed the last THREE days!!! not fun! but i got to go on bike rides so thats fun.



my observations:

1) because of the dinner, we got corn dogs and curly fries while we see the carts of STEAK and fancy food pass us as we eat the corn dogs on paper plates and drink from plastic cups (theyre using the good plates and cups for the guests....

2) we noticed in the bigging of the week that we were missing tables in the dining hall....

3) there are some people here that are not that bright, because even after all these changes and seeing things taken into the gym and the gym being closed, there were STILL people asking what was going on!



well i believe that this concludes the day...



my bcf alum friends, i ask, why are you not here!!!???? but then i remember that you are all in Virginia...16+ hours away









oh and praise report! i am now officially going to be attending New Prospect Baptist Church, THANKS HANNAH!!! i love it there, and im going to be helping with the kids on wednesday nights!

FYI: i love how everything connects in life, like today, Mrs. Rosie from the Student Services place was coming around doing the room inspections today and she says "becky, we have a mutual friend!" and i was like "really?" thinking it would either be the cliftons or nathaen...
she replys "Yes, Nathaen Hendrix!!" i just think it is still crazy! and Nate and hannah, i met someone form your church in Geneva in addition to josh, Stephanie, not sure of her last name, but its crazy! i love connecting the world, i heard one of my friends saying that it has to be the hand of God that placed us all here, because that little bit of connecting just has no comparrison to the other connecting people that ive met in the last couple of months! its nuts! i love it!

i need to take a minute..

ok is anyone good with finances that can help me come up with a budget? that can help me logically go through with me and help me figure out some things?

gigattattgig

its not giberish.
"God Is Good All The Time All The Time God Is Good."

ive heard those words and said them myself quite often. but i just heard them out of my sister-in-christ who is hurting right now. I sometimes forget the true meaning and impact that those words have. Its those words that we must all cling to when hurting and when at peace. when happy and when sad.
our God is the only TRUE God! There is none like Him! He is constant and His love is unconditional! He is there for us ALL the time even when we have turned our back on Him, He is still faithful and He still loves us no matter what!
though this is true, we all may still feel pain. but those words are healing. they are words of strength. When we feel the pain, we must cling to these words. i might sound simple, you might not agree with me. but as i look around at the pain that life is throwing at some of my friends, or the frustrations and worry and watever it is that life is throwing at me, its that phrase, those 12 words, that bring me hope! and i know He will provide. He will provide everything that i need. He will provide me with the strength to get through the day even when i feel like the world is against me.

SURPRISE!!!!!!!

my friend cut my hair!

storytime with becky

i had been planning to go to the gym today since yesterday.
my friend that i was going to go with kinda bailed on me but i was still going to go so i asked another friend! so it was set, i was going to go work out, not that i needed a buddy, but its less lonely if your not the only one.
the last time i had been to the gym i had pushed myself more then ever before and was determined to do the same today.
sitting at dinner, my roommate asked if i wanted to walk to the store with her after dinner to get some muffin mix. i had a decision to make. i knew i wanted to go to the store because it was a beautiful night and i heart the outdoors! but if i went on this walk, which isnt a short one by any means, would i still go to the gym or would i count the walk as my workout for the day?
i hate making decisions so as i walked with my roomie to the store i contemplated in my head if i would still go to the gym. it was a good thing i went to the gym cause as i walked in the store i realized that i needed shampoo, toothpaste and safety pins(my backpack has a hole i must fix).
as we walked back from town in the pitch darkness, i decided to mess with my roomie who is afraid of the dark, or at least what might lerk in the shadows, by mentioning off handedly certain parts of certain scary movies about things that happen in the dark....that was really funny...

anywho, as we got closer to the school my friend that i was going to go to the gym with called me, and i decided at that moment that i would go to the gym still.
im glad i did because i really dont feel tired from it, i just feel pretty good, slightly in pain from crunches(definitly didnt remember them hurting this much) and my legs kinda feel like jello from the eliptical(30 minutes, top resistance).
i cant really notice a difference in my appearence from my working out and trying to eat healthy, but on the inside i can, i just feel more healthy. and i have reallized that i need to up the water intake because i was getting dehydration headaches and was just lacking in the H2O department. and i have decided to go on a break from sweets(i really like doing this) for 30 days. tis a fun time!
so the end of my story is that i had a decision, i waited til the last moment to make it, and i enjoyed going to the gym! it was awesome! and i loved the walk because i rarely get to have conversations with my roomie about pointless stuff or even really meaningful stuff and that is what happened on our little walk....o did i mention that as we turned a corner, two little dogs ran up to attack us! (they were ankel biters)

well i have some more math to do so i must go to take care of that....alas, my and geometry do not mix....

Crazy awesomeness!!!

my spiritual formations professor has given us a suggested way to do a devo. where we pray first, chatt with God, and then we ask specifically for Him to reveal something to you in the passage you read for the day. a passage that is not random and that is a chapter or more.

God has been revealing things to me lately and placing certain things on my heart. i have just had a desire to know him more.
today i specifically prayed for wisdom. wisdom on who God really is. wisdom on what i need to get straight with Him. wisdom is what i asked for. just after that i began to read from my passage for today. it was proverbs 2, as i am currently reading through Proverbs...
THIS was the passage for my devotion today.

if you have gone to the site and read that then you know what i am speaking of when i say that God is STINKIN AWESOME! so faithful!
CAN I GET AN AMEN!!!!!!!

i heart learning!!!!

shin splints?

ive been having pain in my right leg when i run. it runs all in my shin and feels like the inside of my leg is on fire. i shared this with a few friends in separtate times, they all thought i might have a thing called "shin splints"
so i googled it. i have more knowledge on it and what causes it. i shall try the home "remedies" which is just kinda stretching before i run and massageing the muscle. putting ice on it. grinning a bearing it.... jk thats not one of them. but they also say that it is caused by overpronation. which sounded from the explanation like what is referred to as "flat feet" so i will do the wet foot test tomorrow to see if that is it.
it also said i should get shock absorbing insoles...this is wierd because i run on an eliptical...to me it doesnt seem like its shocking me...weird i dont know.....i just know that when your leg feels like it is inflamed, that cant be good!

but it will be fine just gotta try this new way of healing it...

plus's of the day

1.today after dinner. it was raining, i went and sat on the dock. i love it!!!

2. although i think i failed my test, its over and im glad.

3. i got to meet with my accountablity friend that i have for my Fav. class "Spirtiual Formations", i needed that meeting. it gave me hope for the semester.

4. for lunch today, we had chicken and dumpling's. while it could not compare to mrs. Dorris's (i really hope thats how to spell her name.), it was still really good. and then we had chicken nacho's tonight, two meals i love.

5. it rained! i hope to see a rainbow soon!!!!

tonight

tonight i went out to the dock for some me and Jesus time. alas, He didnt meet me there....or i just wasnt listening well enough. im still learning how to do that.

now my mind in unsettle and i cant sleep though i am really tired.
oh well tomorrow will be fun!

my school addy

5402 college dr. #65
graceville, FL 32440

thats my addy(hehe i have my own mailbox!!!) nothing that comes to me is for my parents, its for me..it make me happy cause i never got mail at home....

big weekend in graceville! and im bein fo real!!

Friday night, i got to help out at Parents Night, which is when all the parents of bcf drop off their lil ones and some of the students vollunteer to feed them, teach them bout Jesus, play games with them and just have fun!
it was AWESOME! We split them up into two groups, the 5 and below, and then the older ones were in the other group. im sure most of you know which group i went to!!! in case you dont, i went with the YOUNGER group! My fav!!!!!!!
but it made me miss all my lil ones back in Virginia such as the Cliftons, Garmans, Davis's, Wires, all my kids from work, the Spencer's, and the list continues....
each of the lil ones would remind me of a different person.
they were so cute!!!!

Tonight(aka Saturday), we had a "food and fun on the move" which is a progressive dinner. we went to our PROFFESSORS houses!!! and they FED US!!! we did play games at two of the houses which was really fun! it was an all around amazing time!
now im bout to go to a NapeTown parte in the dayroom, disney princess movies and some game cause "dear i love you but i just cant smile"
to translate, NapeTown=Napier(my dorm)

decisions decisions decisions

ive got some decision i have to make. im not a decisive person and i dont like to dissappoint people so that makes it more difficult.



Decision one. should i work with a camp that will pay me this summer, return to global where i will have to raise money, or return home for the summer to find a job that may or may not pay well. What does God want me to do? How can i tell if its me following God's will and not me focusing on the logical choice?

Decision two. Should i come home for winter break?

Decision three. Do i need a job because i think i do or am i not relying on God? Why has God not provided me with a job yet? how am i to be able to continue to go to school if i have no job and student loans do not pay for all of my schooling expenses?

my mind hurts and im slightly anxious.


Decision Four. How shall i decorate my room?

Decision Five. How do i become more social with out lacking in my studies? and how do i find the right friends, ones that will encourage and ones where we grow together in Christ?

im thinking that some of these are just questions more then they are decisions....
well i have class soon so i must go.

Love bugs, oh how i hate them!

this little bug is the most annoying thing ever. i got attacked by a bunch of them today....it was not fun!

love bug oh lovebug, please go away!
never come back! not on any day!
you destroy our cars,
you flyin in our hair,
you annoy us so much,
please leave, thanks a bunch!

Back! also the story of the day....

yep i did not get anything blog related for a week. it was tough, and the moment i realized that it was tough was when i realized that that isnt good....i was addicted to blogging! no bueno. from now on i will not get on as much as before, i am limiting myself.

Today though, there is a story to be told of my day...

i put on my tennis shoes, this adventure was in need of tennis shoes, not flipflops, and grabbed a bottle of water, proof of identity, a pen, and some sunglasses and then set out on my hunt for a job.
i decided to do this strategically first, i would go from the closest store to the farthest searching EVERYTHING!!! i went to a hospital, a nursing home(i found myself in the ghetto after this one, that was fun, i was kinda scared cause i was on drug dealer lane...amen for broad daylight though!!), 2 furniature stores, a drug store, 4 restraunts, the piggly wiggly, a dry cleaners, family dollar and the dollar general, and each of the 8 stores that are in the lil graceville outlett mall, and a gas station and a few little random shops. each time i walked out disappointed and discouraged. the two perspective job locations were, "cooks discount drugs" and a lil appiance store in the outlet mall. the appliance store hours are not compatible with my school scedule and the discount drug store closes too early aka is not compatible with my school schedule.
thats the only part about living in a small town, everything closes early, and what doesnt close early already has too many people working at it, and the majority of the stores and such are so low on business that they cant afford to have more then like 3 workers.
i walked around in the florida heat wearing long bluejeans(legs were not shaved and its not good to wear shorts when looking for a job), sneakers, and a longsleeve shirt(it was the nicest shirt that i would be comfortable goin to a possible job interview in and then still be able to walk long ways in)
i was ok when i was told for the 10th time that there were no job openings, but at 15 i started to break down and get really discouraged. i had been out for 2 hours already. then when the 25th and last time came i just about broke down in tears, after all, i had seriously gone EVERYWHERE in walking/biking distance and hadnt found anything.
but God sent a Guardian Angel. i say that because i really feel as if she was. i was about 3 miles from the school and had just left the last possible place, i was not looking forward to that 3 miles because i felt like a failure and did not want to have to walk and then have to think about being a failure all three miles, when someone pulled up in front of me on the side of the road and waved for me to come to the car. as i approached the car i recognized the driver. it was the kind Christian lady that i had met at the DryCleaners an hour and a half earlier, she hadnt been able to offer me a job but when she waved me over on the side of the road, she offered me a ride backto the school. i had been about to cry and then felt truly touched by the kindness of the woman. as she drove me back she shared with me that since i had left the cleaners she had been thinking about me and had spoken with her friend who works at "the circle grill" which is a lil restraunt in town (that had turned me down earlier) and she said that her friend was going to see what he could do to help me out.
I just lived the story of the Good Samaritan, i have heard that story in so many sermons lately, in chapel yesterday and a few podcasts recently. I am very grateful for this good samaritan that helped me out today.
all in all, i didnt actually find a job today, but tomorrow i am going to the "circle grill" to see a man about a job! hopefully i get it. and its not too bad of a walk, i gotta see if i can find a shorter route though....

...update...break

i have realized that im on here too much, writing too much on this thing. i will now take this moment to say that my arm is doing well, still bruised, but what ever. i am ill today, just havent felt well all day...sinus junk i think. but i will be fine. school is great. i love it. but my job is kinda non existant. the lady went to the hospital the day before i was supposed to start the job and i think she had the baby, but she hasnt gotten back with me yet, since its been a lil over 2 weeks since hearing from her at all even after calling her a bunch, as much i know i would love that job, i must search for another. so im back on job hunt mode. i went to tallahassee this past weekend to visit some friends. that was awesome! im back at school now, i missed it so i am glad to be back!

now with all my updates done i shall say this that i will be taking a break from blogging and reading blogs for a week. possibly more, on wednesday of next week ill report back with if im continueing this. text me or call or emial me if needed. talk with you all in a week. love you

nothing to worry about...

i havent cryed over missing people in awhile, until last night, when i was emailing a friend, and about five minutes ago i held back some tears as i read something from a friend. im not homesick. im just people sick. i miss being around you all. "you never know what you got until its gone". and though yall might not be gone, i am, and i thank God for helping me to fully appreciate all of you, even though i had to leave you to do so. my heart hurt today. but im ok, it will pass. phone calls r hard at times, because i just want to hear yall and talk with yall, but then i realize that i miss you all. i get excited to read your blogs and i laugh at your stories. i can hear you speak as i read them. today, i wish i could have taken yall with me to school. Who wants to come to BCF!!!????!?!?!?! its an awesome school! rather affordable for a school!! any takers?!?!?!?

pictures

night one
the next mornign
morning day 2 morning day three
this evening