Discontentment wiggles its way in my heart with each thought not surrendered to my Jesus. It's likely to choke my life of joy and it's so hard to breathe.
I just woke in a panic. My mind was racing in a dream and the dream became so real, I woke.
Today is a gift, not a curse. Today is filled with opportunity to confess my discontent thoughts, repent of this desire to control my life and plan my own days. Today is full of opportunity to live in this humbleness before The Lord and before man. I don't see all that God is doing in my life. There's alot of covert operative work that none of us can see, but His word promises that all of these things are being worked for our good and his ultimate Glory--that our lives would be shaped and molded to be more like Christ.
I believe this. I believe God has plans for my days on earth. I believe He does see and know the deepest desires and dreams of my heart. And I believe He will continue to work in my heart and life, providing for my needs & teaching me to trust His plan. He will weed out the things that my heart tries to find satisfaction in. He will strip my life of all that keeps me from treasuring Him. He will do this because He loves me.
So when I fumble through the days, the nights that are sometimes even more difficult, I'll remind myself of what His word says.
"But godliness with contentment is great gain, for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world." 1 Timothy 6:6-7
"For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.
He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us." Psalm 62:5-8
"The fear of the LORD leads to life; then one rests content, untouched by trouble." Proverbs 19:23
"His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,
by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire.
For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge,
and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness,
and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love.
For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
For whoever lacks these qualities is so nearsighted that he is blind, having forgotten that he was cleansed from his former sins.
Therefore, brothers, be all the more diligent to confirm your calling and election, for if you practice these qualities you will never fall.
For in this way there will be richly provided for you an entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ." 2 Peter 1:3-11
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