OLD School

I just can't shake this idea, this possibility. And now, there may be an opportunity to partake in a smidgen of this really awesome program. I heard about it my first semester here when the booth was displayed at a Preview Day for our school. I just passed it by that day, who was i kidding! An adventure like that was out of the question. The semesters passed, they returned with their booth each semester. always catching my attention. I always silenced the idea before it had the chance to enter my mind.
Why did I do that?
Then, one day, i got a message from a friend who went to school with the guy who stood behind that booth every semester. He said for me to go talk to him, to say hello from another country to his old school buddy. BAM! It was in my face again. Couldn't ignore it anymore.
Kayaking down a river with another friend, talking about our passion for the outdoors and pondering about the future, the subject came up once again. no escape.(and i dont want an escape now, i dont want to ignore it anymore) BUT im here. im at school. im becoming a teacher. where would this fit in? Maybe that is not for me to know now, I need help. AM I CRAZY?
Please join me in praying for wisdom. I don't want to just do this program for the awesome activities available, I want to meet with the Lord where my heart always resides...in the outdoors.
I feel the PULL as i hear the rain beating down outside, as i walk down the road with the country side surrounding me, rich in color and texture; as i drift down a river encompased by peace and true beauty, in the sight of the sky that stretches above me full of glistening dots and magical patterns.
Why is this passion ignited with in me when im called to be a teacher? How will these two meet? both so deep, so natural in instinct. What does it mean?
I just, i need prayer for wisdom. I don't want to make a selfish judgement call. but i really would like to take part in this. It would be great to experience it for a semester, but thats not feesable right now. A week, however, just might be ok.