thought of the day.

i like to go/dream for the impossible, but the realist in me says it just wont happen. goodness gracious.

disecting the brain

im definitly one track minded. i become very tunnel visioned and focused for one thing. and when that one thing has hit its climax, my attention span diminishes.
Camp was my one thing i was focused on and tunnel visioned for. now that its over, my mind cant help but vere off to thoughts of school starting back up.
With a renewed outlook as the one the Lord has been producing in me this summer, i want to finish strong and get to school! So much to think about! FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!! im freakin out!
i miss my school buddies.

update

let me just say, had i gone to Liberty University, i would have the craziest calf muscles ever!! no joke! so many stairs and distance between everything is crazy! im back in the grove!

i had just about forgot my secret weapon to weightoss, CAMP! which can be translated to no stop activity and choosing salad instead of nasty greece filled mess. :) lost about 5lbs this week just cause of all the walking and stairs and tons of water and portioned not crazy meals! (go figure!)

camp

I was on staff with the SBCV Studentz Camp this past week.
God rocked the house! we can now welcome 100+ into the family and Praise the Lord for the 40+other decisions that were made. one statement that the speaker made to the students was that they need to be ready because "the devil will be waiting in their driveway." for clarification, he was illustrating that Christ had gotten ahold of their hearts this week at camp and that sickens Satan. He was cautioning them to be on guard and aware of what they would face as they return to reality, to life outside of camp. Please join in praying for these. Our Brothers and Sisters need us to join along side them, praying for and encouraging them. though you may never meet any of them, please join in praying that they would hold on to the truth of God. and that they would rely on him for strength when faced with temptation. Pray the they CLING to His word as if it were the very breath they breath.

The Lord also refreshed me this week. Challenged me to not give up, to pursue holiness even more fervently then ever. He blessed my life this week. felt like i was falling in love with Him all over again. Amen for a great week of serving along side some amazing people, and for conversations i will never forget :)

F.

Well, im off tomorrow for a week in Lynchburg, VA. Studentz Camp 2010 is my destination. once im done here at CWAC for the day, i will be off to pack and get ready.
Prayer Request:
Lord, make me invisible. Lord, be the only one that is visible this week. May the words that come from my mouth be Your words. May You be glorified in all that happens. Break down our walls, reveal to each of us Your Truth. May we come face to face with you this week and unable to leave unchanged. Help me to lay aside selfishness, pride, any thing that is of me and my desires. Help me to lean on you and you alone for strength, for joy, for wisdom, for discernment. Lord. Wipe out everything that is blocking us from seeing Your heart and following Your will, example, and commands.

my drug of choice

i have an extreme urge to go jogging, alas, it is 10:30pm and im babysitting and ive already been freaked out by movements outside....

earlier this weekend i had one of those moments where i just felt like a blob. just completely off and in a daze...

i want to start new, but at the same time I am tired of starting new, and im reminded of how hard it was to let go of bad habits. habits i had gotten rid of but have slowly crept back in the last few months.

Keeping focused on the goal is key and so that is what i will do.

today, the Lord blessed me with the urge to LIVE! i dont know if i sound ridiculous now, but what i mean by that is that my gloppy feeling that has lingered over me the last week or so just really sickened me today. and i found myself soaking in the sun as if it were my strength. swimming in the Lake with the Garman girls, wishing to just go free and swim around the entire area. and as i road Annie's bike, i was reminded of how amazing it feels to have the wind blowing at your face. I got a taste of what i have missed so much today.

why do i so easily forget these beautiful things in life?

I want to live. i want to "feel the burn" that somehow says i have accomplished something today! i want to soak in the beauty of the world around me that the Lord provided, that He created!

thats the kind of medicine that is good for my soul.

epic failure

first couple days doing this and its already an epic failure! my streak of not gaining or losing any weight has broken, but not in my favor.
i shudder to write that i have gained 5lbs.
this is stinkin hard...
back to the drawing board.


lets try:
no eating after 6:30pm
one desert a week

ive not been doing good about writing down what i eat...
i need to revamp the exercise thing...right now i need to figure out when i can make time to exercise. usually the nights are all i got, but when i excercise at night i cant get to sleep, so i dont excercise because i have to be able to sleep to get up in the morning for work.

maybe ill try something DRASTIC!!! like p90x....?