thanks pops!!

my love for patsy cline and connie smith and loretta lynn and so many others is due to my dad! i love it!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_kkA0Zb6BY

PRAISE THE LORD!

PRAISE HIS NAME!!!
IM Gonna Walk AND Talk to Jesus, Stand with the Lord!

just wanted to share my joy of today! im so excited!!! i am EMPLOYED!!!! i have a job with the cafeteria, right now it is for wednesdays, not so sure the hours but hey! its a job! and he said that with me starting now, He can work me into the scedule for the spring!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!



God is amazing!

arrogance

Definition: an attitude of superiority manifested in an overbearing manner or in presumptuous claims or assumptions

as i sat in spiritual formation today and first i stared at my quiz i hadnt prepared for, then listened to the lecture, taking notes and such, it really hit me.
ive become arrogant in my faith. just to be transparent. in the mornings i choose sleep over Jesus, in the evenings, i push Him away for mindless hours of music, or homework, or computer. I talk over and over about everyone else needing to get right with Him when i still have this huge log lodged in my eye. I talk of how i want to change, i know all the steps to change, but my actions are lacking.

Incognito

yes michele, that is will! this is the saved by the bell crew, right to left, sam as lisa, jason as zack morris, Lauren as Kelly, and my global buddy will as slater.

these guys were "Gang Green". yes michele, the guy on the far right front is kevin.

This was awesome! these girls kept theirs a secret for a long time and came in late, they came storming in and that group above of guys above, yeah the girls came as the guys. something about being the Baptist College Trashbag Crew....

it was awesome! but from right to left let me see if i can get this, Lo came as Jeff, Mackinze i cant tell who she came as, Katie came as Kyle, Angela came as Kevin, cassie came as Joe, and Callie came as Brandon....if only you knew this group of guys and this group of girls you would fully understand the hilariousness of this..the girls did a great job!

we even had our own McCain and Palin played by Matt and Krista
and if you look way in the back right behind them, there is Hillary Clifton and her secret service.

This is Liz, A fellow queen, Queen of diamonds. and that is Lee, he was the doctor.

This is my friend April (Queen of hearts) and her Boyfriend Bryan, he was a farmer

Me and my roomie! we were part of a group of four, the Queens of the deck! i was spaids and she was clubs, My friend Liz was diamonds and April was Hearts

in the front here are my bff's Leah and Ashton, Leah is Dorthy and Ashton is a punk rocker/guitar hero fan.....

behind them to the left is Rebekah and Ashia, they came as eachother, and Rebekah is my prayer group leader this semester.

i can understand wanting to just hang out in the room, having homework and such...but i really cant understand NEVER desireing to get out of the room for anything but to eat or go to class! so many awesome opportunities come up all the time. why in the world would you choose to hermit in the room when you could go and experience some pretty awesome and amazing things!!!
i just wont ever understand. your only in college once! ENJOY IT!!!

my tuesday thus far...

had the alarm set for 6...for some reason i dont even remember hitting the snooze but i did and didnt wake up til 7:30, which made me have to rush and cut out things that i really had wanted to do....a whole hour and a half gone! must have needed the sleep....

I presented my Book Review today. Our professor told us to try to keep it under 10 minutes, yeah, def had alot more to say and ended with a 20 minute presentation. I was one of the guinea pigs so it was ok. Dr. Carrol told me that my review was good and that i have no reason to worry for going over. im just glad it is over! i also, in that same class, turned in an essay on using examples to prove a point. my point was on having a silver lining perspective.
no i have to finish my paper on the Salem witch trials for history, thank the Lord that my professor moved it back so its due monday instead of tomorrow!

Incognito is tonight. its the halloweenish party thing that BCM has, basically costumes and food and party= incognito. i think im going. if i do go ill be going as "the queen of spaids" along with some friends of mine who will be "the queen of diamonds" and "the queen of hearts" not so sure if i was supposed to put those in quotes or not....oh well!
ill post pics if i go when i get back. still havent decided...

right now i feel as if i have had 8 cups of highly cafenated coffee, when i havent even had one. or anything with caffeene in it as a matter of fact... tis a strange feeling....i dont recomend it...
not bad, but not good,

urg

i just took my 3rd bio test, on my last two i have freaked out in fear and then gotten an 88 and a 92 but this one i believe is so different. it was 4 time more difficult and i will be sincerely shocked if i pass. it was the shortest of the three tests but so many terms and so much... anatamy is not my deal....



other then that its been a good day, bout to go fix one of my essays and write the others....i took a rediculous amount of time writing that other essay, i def made it more hard then i should have...

k love all peace!

southern living!

i just enjoyed the best lunch ever, made by the sweetest of ladies ever! Hannah, your mom can cook!!! i just enjoyed the most tender turkey, the sweetest sweet potatos, some delicious homemade macarony and cheese, and so nice awesome Souther Style Sweet Tea!!!
Great company + Amazing food = the perfect way to spend a sunday afternoon!!!

Not to mention that i got to play with thier dogs and cat, get a tour of Slocomb, feed the catfish some leftover bread, AND feed the cows!!! oh my goodness!!! i want a cow!!!! i love animals! i love the country!!! i dont want to live in the city, give me a big piece of land with a catfish pond and some cows and a nice garden and dogs running everywhere any day! EVERY DAY!!!!!

real quick

life is great!
i am starting my search of how to get back to college. the following are ways that i have explored.
*ride back with a friend from school (the only one from va happens to be from about 20 or so minutes away, but she might be flying, not driving...)
*flight (the flights i have been able to find are priced between $300-$500 ONE WAY FLIGHT!! )
*bus (around $150-$200)
*hitchhike...(might take awhile, but it could work...my suitcase rolls....)
*some other way that i dont even know of yet....

so if yall wouldnt mind praying with me on this...really expensive things and i dont really have that money to spend on that stuff, the money i make over break will stricktly be for next semesters tuition and so yeah...

really, im not worried, i know God has a plan, but if yall have any suggestions or ideas or you would just pray for this that would be awesome!
gracias!
now im off to write them papers!
peace!

Clint! Jennifer! Nate!

ok so today (man the week just doesnt end with blessing, I LOVE IT!!) but today i was excited all day because there was a girls pj party night in Brackin. Two ladies that went to school here back between 1995-2000 came and spoke. any who, at first i did not realize that they had come here way back when (sorry peeps that went to school with them...this is not nesasarily saying that you are old....) any who... when i figured it out and they said what year they were here i decided to take a shot in the dark and ask them if they knew any of you, their names are Delana Smith and Candy Morris, dont know if that rings a bell, but they remembered who you were! and then inquired as to how yall are doing and such....

But i just thought that was neat-o! cause they came we just had a girls night and it was pretty sweet and now im about to go pass out after i read some because i have three papers and a project and i have to study for biology and help set up for the fall festival at church tomorrow...!!!!

k night!

taking a break

things on my end are doing great! ive had a really good week, even though it has been slightly cold, i guess you never can really run from the cold....

its been relaxing on so many levels, i took my last midterm today. and really have just had a chill week FULL to the BRIM of God's love and mercy and BLESSINGS!

a few highlights....

Monday: Chapel speaker for the week, John Cross, was amazing!

sang disney songs while baking cakes with my friend leah for ashton's bday

had alot of energy that night and it just kinda flowed into everything, major answer to prayer with my accountablility partner that night as well, so we were rejoicing and chatting in the prayer chapel for awhile.

Tuesday: THE BESTEST OF DAYS EVER!!!

Started with me waking for the day early, decided to rock the heals and do my hair.

did my devo in the Prayer Chapel, always awesome.

had breakfast with friends and laughed

took an easy midterm.

CHAPEL WAS AMAZ-ZA-ZING!! ill post the messages from this week up here later. and the Mens choral sang Oh happy day(sisteract2 version!!!) andwe sang some of my fav. songs in chapel.

hyper ALL DAY! went to my friends bday thing at a botanical garden

(we went to dothan, got burger king, went to the garden, ate there and had some cake and then walked around the garden taking pics and enjoying the lil scarecrow sculptures.)

came back and BCM had "Night of worship" out onthe dock. OH MY WORD!!

THE SPIRT WAS THERE AND IT WAS AWESOME!!!

after that, goofed off with the guys on the dock for a bit then went and goofed off with the girls inthe day room, making fun of "supposed-to-be-scary" tv shows and High school musical 2.

then my neighbors and i decided to be each others account. people. so we met together for the first time. shared our testimonies, it was awesome because we did not hide anything. sinners we are redeemed by Christ.

then i didnt want the day to end cause it was so good so i stayed up til like 2 and talked with my good friend ashton.

Wednesday

i was still quite hyper, and happy.

chapel was amazing AGAIN!!!!

great day....nothing bad, cafeteria food was even good.

went to church, had fun with the kids, we talked about creation, made playdough creatures and played hide and seek (a fav amoung the youngins)

thursday:

that was today, it was great. exam earlier wasnt bad.

cleaned for room inspections, had prayer group.

didnt have a quiz in Spiritual Form. so that was awesome.

had an all around good day.

went to the BESTEST most THOUGH PROVOKEING bible study ever

The Mark is what it is and it is very much so i would say amazing!

most of the time we only get through maybe 3 verses of scripture because we litterally TEAR up and break down the verse, going back to the Greek and everything! its pretty much AMAZING!!

now im finishing typing this and then im off to bed it is Ten to 1am. and im sorta tired...

ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD, GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!!!!

night all!

NEWS!!!!!

hello all, im working on getting all of my pics over the past years up on my new web page via shutterfly.com so if you want some kackles or anything, go check it out, im still working on it, right now the only things up are pics of some of your kids, (Garmans, Davis's, Clifton's, Brown's, etc.) and then some pics of my family...but trust me, there will be MANY MANY more to be put up!!! ive been working on editing ALL of my THOUSANDS of pics. and have finally finished, i think....

oh someone from q. town, does anyone have the email address or reg. address for the browns?

k so thats kul



http://beckycastle.shutterfly.com/

How He Loves

“How He Loves” by John Mark McMillan
He is jealous for me
Love’s like a hurricane,
I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are
and how great your affections are for me.

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.

Yeah, He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves.

So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we’re all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way
That he loves us,

Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves
He loves us,
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Chx6s3qXKt4
This is an awesome song, written through an awesome testimony.

3am

this weekend, i just dont know where the time went. i have three midterms this week, (2 for one class) and with in the next two weeks i have 3 papers due. biology and Geometry homework piles on and the normal amount of reading for Spiritual Formations remains. i feel as though ive accomplished nothing this weekend. i feel ok about my upcoming test. still awaiting the results of my Spiritual Form. midterm of doom..(i truthfully think i did ok on it).
there just seems to not be enough hours in the day.
so much needs to get done, no time to do it.

Scooters/Mopeds

i know im probably reallly insane for event thinking about this, but i am seriously considering the having a scooter or moped. i need something that will get me to work (since i cant find a job aroung graceville i must venture on to find one elsewhere), or to church on sundays and is fuel efficient and inexpensive.
i know i dont have the money right now and probably wont for a while, but i am going to start saving for what i think is the solution to my lack of a vehicle.
it may sound completely crazy and i know that its not going happen for a while, but i need something to get me to work because i need a job. right now people are telling me that i can use their cars and such which is awesome. but i dont like "mooching" off of people. i dont like having to rely on things because i feel like im inconvienencing them.
its hard to be independent when you dont have a job! URG!!!!

becky castle: graceville's newest hair cutter!

two of my friends decided to let me CUT their HAIR!!!
they didnt hate it so i guess all is well then!!

stretching steps

i have been learning that i am susceptible to addiction. addiction is only good when addicted to Jesus. so in attempt to refocus and see if I have discipline, i decided to take a break from a few things.
this wednesday marks a month with-out dessert, candy, chocolate, or anything like that. you might think I'm strange for having gone without this. and on thursday, i will be beginning a 30 day absence from Facebook.com
as a college student, facebook is a fact of life. but if not careful, it can get in the way. as i believe it has begun to get in the way of school, and of my relationship with Christ.
It has come to my attention that the choices i make now will affect my future. i hope that the decisions i am makeing now will help shape my future in a way that will Glorify the Lord.

last thought. it seems to me that conviction comes without warning. something that you have thought to be right all your life may bring conviction if you are truly seeking the Lord. thats happened alot recently in my life. clearing off my stage is difficult. and there are things that have become idols in my life that i am not happy about. this is my time to change. this day and everyday, for as long as it takes, i will clear off the stage of my life.

if confused, here is a song by Ross King that ill explain all. "clear the stage"

Clear the stage and set the sound and lights ablaze

If that's the measure that it takes to crush the idols.

Chuck the pews and all the decorations too

Until the congregations few then have revival.

Tell your friends that this is where the party ends

until you're broken for your sins you can't be social.

Then seek the Lord and wait for what he has in store

and know that great is your reward and just be hopeful

Cause you can sing all you want to.

Yes you can sing all you want to

you can sing all you want to

And don't get me wrong, worship is more than a song.

Take a break from all the plans that you made

And sit at home alone and wait for God to whisper.

Beg Him please to open up his mouth and speak

And pray for real upon your knees until they blister.

Shine the light on every corner of your life

Until the pride and lust and lies are in the open.

Then read the word and put to test the things you've heard

Until your heart and soul are stirred and rocked and broken.

Cause you can sing all you want to.

Yes you can sing all you want to

you can sing all you want to

And don't get me wrong, worship is more than a song.

Anything I put before my God is an idol.

Anything I want with all my heart is an idol.

Anything I can't stop thinking of is an idol.

Anything that I give all my love is an idol.

We must not worship something that's not even worth it.

Clear the stage and make some space for the one who deserves it.

Cause I can sing all I want to.

Yes I can sing all I want to

I can sing all I want to

And still get it wrong, worship is more than a song.

And you can sing all you want to.

Yes you can sing all you want to

You can sing all you want to

But don't get me wrong, worship is more than a song.

an update for ya

my midterm thursday went well. i really feel confident that i did well and am hoping that my grade on it will help and not hinder my grade, if at all possible i would like to maintain the A that i have in that class.

I was sorta aware of this when i came to BCF. but apparently i am attending the "Bridal College of Florida". i think clint, jennifer, nate, and hannah can attest to this fact.
there is something called the "first semester curse" that is when you go through some sort of dating drama. directly, this has not affected me. but indirectly as has happened since middleschool, i am affect by seeing my friends here couple off. i just dont understand how you can possibly say that you are going to start dating someone after knowing them for a month or less... it is just extremely dumb. besides the fact that its the first semester of college....tis crazy. i dont anticipate getting wrapped up with this bridal college stuff. the guys that are freshman with me now dont really impress me, besides half of them are younger then me. and thats just weird. so with the fact standing that you leave BCF with either a husband, kid or job, im leaning more towards the Job part. that would be really nice.

that was real random, i was just telling my brother about it earlier today so it was on my mind.. but its 2:50am here (so its 3:50am in stafford) so none of my thoughts will be makeing any sense.

ok so last monday i took my bio test, it went well, i think i may have said this already. then thursday i took the SF test, it went well too as i have said. Monday i have a Geometry test. Proofs are not my strong suit but i think ill do fine. English is strange, i have to take this weird test on tusday and thursday this week and it wont count against me its just to see if ive learned anything so far. then NEXT tuesday i have the essay part of my midterm for English, then the comprehension and gramar part is on NEXT thursday. history i have a midterm in a week. that will conclude the tests. but the time is approaching fast that it will all be over. which means that i have a 2500 word book review to do, a 1500-2000 word research paper on the salem witch trials thats due in two weeks. and all the lil stuff that is due everyday.
ive got some busy weeks ahead, but i love it

PLEASE PRAY for:

• finances for school to work out.
• my shoulder, i think i pulled something and ive iced it and heated it, nothing is working.
• me to find a job.
• the decision for next summer, Global? Home and a job? Camp Keystone(paying job)? something else...?
• time and resourse management.

i really just want to see a familiar face. i dont know. i love it here. love everything about it. but to not see anyone familiar (as in from stafford or such) is getting sorta ruff. its only mid october, i still have 2 1/2 months to go til christmas break. its been a bit since i have seen ppl. and yeah. i miss yall. i know i will be fine. weekends are sorta difficult and then mondays too because ppl get all excited that they get to go home for the weekend then they come back and are all excited bout the weekend and share stories, and i love hearing them but still it just like a lil bit more dificult cause its not liek i can just hop in a car and go home for the weekend....kinda far away....

can i entice anyone to come to the peanut festival?!?!? its a big fair with a rodeo and dirt bikes and fun fair stuff and peanuts!!! it is the last friday of October!! it should be loads of fun!!!!!!!!

k love yall its 3:07am here and im ready to hit the hay.

my first mid term

i have my first mid term tomorrow. it is for spiritual formations and unless they are just trying to mess with us the students that have had this class before said it was a difficult one. so tommorow at 1:30 central time (2:30 eastern time) i will be in a classroom trying to wrack my brain for the answers. hope fully i will do well. im pretty confident that i know the material. but if you could pray for me that would be great. that my mind will be clear of everything but spiritual formation!!! and that i get sufficient rest tonight.
thanks love you all!

to all of those who have graced this earth longer then i...

Are you frightened by the site of those pesky grey hairs on your head?

Well have no fear!
Proverbs 16:31 will have all of your answers!!
"Grey hair is a crown of Glory,
it is gained in a righteous life!"

roomies

i think my roommate thinks i am crazy. i could be my random shouting when i have energy or my lack of sense at times. its really fun having a roommate though. in my whole life the only time i ever shared a space with another person was when i would go on trips with friends and when i went to Global.

but all in all. even though we are complete opposites, we still share some things in common and it is awesome to get to share my college experience with my roomie...though i may annoy at times...

thats a bubble pipe, see we are both sorta crazy...so it works!

my brain is officially fried,

i just got out of biology, we had a test today. no fun.

but it is over now, i am pretty confident that i passed,
now begins the brain recovery process. i think im going to bike onover to the football game.
so i called someone about a job i saw in a job list we have.
the thing is though that the job list asked for a man because its yard work and washing the ladies car every once in a while, but it was the only thing i could do for location sake, so i called her...got the answering machine. but i think im a pretty tough gal, i think i can do yard work and wash someone car, ive done it before...so hopefully it will work out...please pray that it does or that something else comes available.
the drug store i applied at is in need of full time workers during the day, and i have school so that wont work, but she said that if she cant find that one full time person then she will hire two part time workers and that im up on the list for it then.
i really wouldnt mind working full time, i just have class in odd moments, im signing up for my classes for next semester soon, i know what i want to take, but i am hopeing that i can maybe work my schedule so that my classes are all in the morning or something like that so that i have more work availability. though i love how i have my classes arranged now, i do realize now that it makes it harder for an employer to work around the schedule i have...
ne who, theres the update for yall.
peace!

new members of my family!

i havent found names for them yet, but these are the new members of my college family!!

im quite excited and shall post thier names when they have been given to them, ive got some ideas.....but im not sure yet.

to copy or not to copy, that is the question!

this is something i have been thinking about lately. brought on by a sermon in chapel.
the issue at hand is what is legal or not legal when it comes to copying CD's. is it ever right or ok? how do you all feel about it? if a friend lets you borrow a cd, are you someone that strictly listens to it and then gives it back, or are most likely to copy it to your computer for you ipod or whatever? do you think it is right or wrong? what are your thoughts?
just a thought, just wanting some thoughts of others in the mix!